It was Elsie who did most of the talking. Cissy reminded her now and
then of something she had forgotten, and, when they turned into the
Passage des Panoramas, Elsie was deep in an explanation of the folly
of square brush work. Both were converts to open brush work. They had
learnt it from a very clever fellow, an impressionist. All his shadows
were violet. She did not hold with his theory regarding the division
of the tones: at least not yet. Perhaps she would come to it in time.
Mildred liked Elsie's lady in a white dress reading under a
rhododendron tree in full blossom. Cissy had painted a naked woman in
the garden sunshine. Mildred did not think that flesh could be so
violet as that, but there was a dash and go about it that she felt she
would never attain. It seemed to her a miracle, and, in her admiration
for her friend's work, she forgot her own failure. The girls dined at
a Bouillon Duval and afterwards they went to the theatre together.
Next morning they met, all three, in the studio; the model was
interesting, Mildred caught the movement more happily than usual; her
friends' advice had helped her.
But at least two years would have to pass before she would know if she
had the necessary talent to succeed as an artist. For that while she
must endure the drudgery of the studio and the boredom of evenings
alone with Mrs. Fargus. She went out with Elsie and Cissy sometimes,
but the men they introduced her to were not to her taste. She had seen
no one who interested her in Paris, except perhaps M. Daveau. That
thick-set, black-bearded southern, with his subtle southern manner,
had appealed to her, in a way. But M. Daveau had been ordered suddenly
to Royon for gout and rheumatism, and Mildred was left without any one
to exercise her attractions upon. She spent evening after evening with
Mrs. Fargus, until the cropped hair, the spectacles, above all, the
black satin dress with the crimson scarf, getting more and more
twisted, became intolerable. And Mr. Fargus' cough and his vacuous
conversation, in which no shadow of an idea ever appeared, tried her
temper. But she forebore, seeing how anxious they were to please her.
That was the worst. These simple kind-hearted people saw that their
sitting-room bored Mildred, and they often took her for drives in the
Bois after dinner. Crazed with boredom Mildred cast side-long glances
of hatred at Mrs. Fargus, who sat by her side a mute little figure
lost in Comte. Mr. Fargus' sallow-complexioned face was always
opposite her; he uttered commonplaces in a loud voice, and Mildred
longed to fling herself from the carriage. At last, unable to bear
with reality, she chattered, laughed, and told stories and joked until
her morose friends wondered at her happiness. Her friends were her
audience; they sufficed to stimulate the histrionic spirit in her, and
she felt pleased like an actor who has amused an audience which he
despises.
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