Cerise: A Tale of the Last CenturyWhyte-Melville, G. J. (George John)
General
Cerise: A Tale of the Last Century
Whyte-Melville, G. J. (George John)
Historical fiction
Florian’s task was to obtain influence over the girl. Thus he salved
his conscience till it was too late, and thus excused himself for the
eagerness with which he caught every glance of her eye and drank in
every tone of her voice. It was only when his own looks fell before
hers, when he trembled and turned pale at the sound of her step—when her
image—serene, and fair, and gracious—rose between him and the Cross at
which he knelt, that he knew his peril, his weakness and his sin.
But it was too late then; though he wrestled with the phantom, it
overcame him time by time. Prostrate, bleeding, vanquished, he would
confess with something of the bitterness of spirit and plaintive proud
self-sacrifice of a lost angel, that he had given his soul to Cerise and
did not grudge her the gift.
Not even though she refused to love him in return. Perhaps, after all,
this was the poisoned edge of the weapon—the bitter drop in the cup; and
yet had it been otherwise, it may be the young Jesuit could have found
strength to conquer his infatuation, self-sacrifice, to give up freely
that which was freely his own.
It was not so, however. The very innocence that guarded the girl, while
it lured him irresistibly to destruction, was the most insurmountable
barrier in his path; and so he hovered on, hoping that which he dared
not realise—wishing for all he felt he would yet be unwilling to accept;
striving for a prize unspeakably precious, though, perhaps I should say,
_because_ impossible of attainment, and which, even if he could win it,
he might not wear it so much as an hour. No wonder his heart beat and his
breath came quick, while he passed with stealthy gait into the convent
garden, a pitfall for the feet that walked in innocence—a black sheep in
a stainless flock—a leper where all the rest were clean.
But Cerise, radiant in her white dress, crossed the sunny lawn and came
down the accustomed path with more than their usual light shining in her
blue eyes, with a fresher colour than common on her soft young cheeks.
To him she had never looked so beautiful, so womanly, so attractive. The
struggle had been very fierce during his solitary walk; the defeat was
flagrant in proportion. He ought to have known a bitter disappointment
must be in store to balance the moment of rapture in which he became
conscious of her approach. Some emanation seemed to glorify the air all
around her, and to warn him of her presence long before she came. To the
lady-superior of the convent, to her elders and instructors, Mademoiselle
de Montmirail was nothing more than a well-grown damsel, with good eyes
and hair, neither more nor less frivolous and troublesome than her
fellows, with much room for improvement in the matters of education,
music, manners, and deportment; but to the young Jesuit she was simply—an
angel.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account