Chains : $b lesser novels and storiesDreiser, Theodore
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Chains : $b lesser novels and stories
Dreiser, Theodore
American fiction -- 20th century; Short stories, American
But on the other hand, in the face of a father as strict as Zobel
himself and a mother who believed in his goodness, his course was
not absolutely clear either. And so from this hour on an attempt to
extricate himself as speedily and as gracefully as possible from this
threatening position. But before this a serious, if irritated, effort
on his part to find a remedy among his friends of the boating club and
street corners. But with the result merely of a vivid advertisement of
the fact that this gay and successful adventure of his had now resulted
most unsuccessfully for Ida. And thereafter hints and nods and nudges
among themselves whenever she chanced to pass. And Ida, because of fear
of scandal, staying in as much as she could these days, or when she did
appear trying to avoid Warren Avenue at High as much as possible. For
by now she was truly terrified, seized indeed with the most weakening
emotions based on the stern and unrelenting countenance of her father
which loomed so threateningly beyond the immediate future. “If me no
ifs,” and “but me no buts.” Oh, how to do? For throughout the trial of
this useless remedy, there had been nothing to do but wait. And the
waiting ended in nothing—only greater horrors. And between all this,
and enforced work at the store and enforced duties at home, efforts to
see her beloved—who, because of new and more urgent duties, was finding
it harder and harder to meet her anywhere or at any time.
“But you must see how it is with me, don’t you, dear? I can’t go on
like this, can’t you see that? You said you’d marry me, didn’t you? And
look at all the time that’s gone already. Oh, I’m almost mad. You must
do something. You must! You must! If father should find out, what in
the world would I do? What would he do to me, and to you, too? Can’t
you see how bad it is?”
Yet in the face of this tortured plea on the part of this frantic and
still love-sick girl, a calm on the part of Hauptwanger that expressed
not indifference but cruelty. She be damned! He would not. He could
not. He must save himself now at whatever cost. And so a determined
attempt not to see her any more at all—never to speak to her openly
anywhere—or to admit any responsibility as to all this. Yet, because
of her inexperience, youth and faith thus far, no willingness on her
part to believe this. It could not be. She had not even so much as
sensed it before. Yet his continuing indifference which could only be
interpreted one way. The absences—the excuses! And then one day, when
pains and terror seized on her and thereby drove her to him, he looking
her calmly and brazenly in the eye and announcing: “But I didn’t really
promise to marry you, and you know I didn’t. Besides, I’m not to blame
any more than you are. You don’t suppose that just because you don’t
know how to take care of yourself I’ve got to marry you now, do you?”
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