'I shall insist upon being believed. There is no evidence--is
there?--to prove me wrong.'
As she did not answer, he repeated his question, then released her in
suspicion.
'What do you know? tell me!'
After a very long pause, he said quietly,--
'I understand. There are many ways of conveying information. I am very
blind about some things. Heavens! if I had suspected that truth, either
you would not have remained here, or Paul would not have remained here.
A priest! Unheard of.... A priest to add to your collection. First
Miloradovitch, now Paul. Moths pinned upon a board. He loved you? Oh,'
he cried in a passion, 'I see it all: he struggled, you persisted--till
you secured him. A joke to you. Not a joke now--surely not a joke, even
to you--but a triumph. Am I right? A triumph! A man, dead for you. A
priest. You allowed me to talk, knowing all the while.'
'I am very sorry for Paul,' she said absently.
He laughed at the pitiably inadequate word.
'Have the courage to admit that you are flattered. More flattered than
grieved. Sorry for Paul--yes, toss him that conventional tribute before
turning to the luxury of your gratified vanity. That such things can
be! Surely men and women live in different worlds?'
'But, Julian, what could I do?'
'He told you he loved you?'
She acquiesced, and he stood frowning at her, his hands buried in
his pockets and his head thrust forward, picturing the scenes, which
had probably been numerous, between her and the priest, letting his
imagination play over the anguish of his friend and Eve's indifference.
That she had not wholly discouraged him, he was sure. She would not
so easily have let him go. Julian was certain, as though he had
observed their interviews from a hidden corner, that she had amusedly
provoked him, watched him with half-closed, ironical eyes, dropped him
a judicious word in her honeyed voice, driven him to despair by her
disregard, raised him to joy by her capricious friendliness. They had
had every opportunity for meeting. Eve was strangely secretive. All had
been carried on unsuspected. At this point he spoke aloud, almost with
admiration,--
'That you, who are so shallow, should be so deep!'
A glimpse of her life had been revealed to him, but what secrets
remained yet hidden? The veils were lifting from his simplicity;
he contemplated, as it were, a new world--Eve's world, ephemerally
and clandestinely populated. He contemplated it in fascination,
acknowledging that here was an additional, a separate art, insistent
for recognition, dominating, imperative, forcing itself impudently upon
mankind, exasperating to the straight-minded because it imposed itself,
would not be denied, was subtle, pretended so unswervingly to dignity
that dignity was accorded it by a credulous humanity--the art which Eve
practised, so vain, so cruel, so unproductive, the most fantastically
prosperous of impostors!
She saw the marvel in his eyes, and smiled slightly.
'Well, Julian?'
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