Ireland -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Short stories, Irish
"All this time I know I 'm very fond of Janssen, and something tells me
Janssen is of me, though God knows why. But we say nothing. At times
it's hard to talk. And I look at her and think. If things were only
different, how I could love that girl! But here she is, a prisoner,
and I 'm her keeper. It's a pity. It's a pity, even, she's changed.
It makes it awful hard for me.
"But I can't keep my eyes off her. She stands on the beach, the wind
rustling her green garment, and rippling her hair. Very beautiful.
And a little butterfly, from God knows where, is fluttering about her.
Now it's in her hair, now about her throat. And curiously it comes to
light on her lips.
"'You look awfully pretty, Janssen,' I say, 'with that butterfly.'
"She smiles at me, kind of queerly.
"'You 're a brave man, McCarthy,' she says, 'the bravest man I ever
knew. You 're strong. You 're tremendous. Yes, you 're brave. But
this little butterfly, that in all its body has n't the strength of one
single hair of your head, whose brief life is but a single day, is
braver than you, McCarthy, braver far than you.'
"'I don't understand you, Janssen.'
"But I understand her all right.
"And the days roll by, roll by, and nothing changes, nothing comes to
us. Once or twice we see sails. Once a full-rigged ship under bare
poles runs before a gale. And once in the distance we see a schooner
heeling to the breeze.
"We are not speaking much to each other. There is a feeling of
strangeness in the air. And at night I 'm worried-like. The trees
rustle. The waves lap. There is great darkness. And for all we are
the only two people in that island, yet I feel at night somehow we are
not alone. Unseen, shadowy people are about us, in the sea, in the
air. Once there were millions on these islands and now there are few.
Once they were a great strong race, and now they are a timid handful.
And I imagine that in the dark of the moon the brown tribes reassemble
and put to sea in their war-canoes, and walk on the beaches that are so
like Paradise.
"And there are great temples on these islands, but their gods are no
more. And may they not too walk in the night-time with terrible,
silent stride?
"The Cross of Christ is between me and all harm. I believe that, and I
know it, and I am not afraid. But I am unquiet, nevertheless.
"And if I am unquiet, what of Janssen, wide-eyed through the night?
"At last one night I take my courage in both hands. Janssen is sitting
in the moonlight by the cove, and for the first time I ever heard her
she is singing a little something. Her voice is somehow like a boy's.
"'Janssen!' I stand and look at her.
"'Yes, McCarthy.' She turns and looks at me.
"'Janssen, when we go back,' I say, 'and when what has to be will be
done, and when all is over, the morning you are free, I 'll be waiting
at the gate for you. I 'll want you to marry me and come to me.'
"'You love me, McCarthy?'
"'Yes,' I said, 'I love you, Janssen.'
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