Pan Stanislav remembered how Vaskovski, at news of Litka's last attack,
said that the life of the child could not be purposeless, and that
if she had to die she was predestined to do something before death;
and now he wished to attack Vaskovski on this point, when the thought
flashed on him that, before her death, Litka had united him with
Marynia; and it occurred to him that perhaps she had lived for this
very purpose. But at that moment he rebelled against the thought. Anger
at Marynia seized him; he was full of stubbornness, and almost contempt.
"I do not want Marynia at such a price!" thought he, gritting his
teeth; "I do not! I have suffered enough through her. I would give ten
such for one Litka."
Meanwhile Vaskovski, trotting near him, said,--
"Nothing is to be seen at a step's distance, and the stones are
slippery from fog. Without thee I should have fallen long ago."
Pan Stanislav recovered himself, and answered,--
"Whoso walks on the earth, professor, must look down, not up."
"Thou hast good legs, my dear friend."
"And eyes which see clearly, even in a fog like this which surrounds
us. And it is needful, for we all live in a fog, and deuce knows what
is beyond it. All that thou sayest makes on me such an impression
as the words of a man who would break dry twigs, throw them into a
torrent, and say, Flowers will come from these. Rottenness will come,
nothing more. From me, too, this torrent has torn away something from
which I am to think that a flower will rise? Folly! But here is thy
gate. Good-night!"
And they separated. Pan Stanislav returned to his own house barely
alive, he was so weary; and, when he had lain down in bed, he began
to torture himself with thoughts further continued, or rather with
visions. To begin with, before his eyes appeared the figure of Pani
Emilia, powerless from pain; she was sitting in Marynia's parlor,
under the palm-leaf, which was hanging over her head like an immense
ill-omened hand, with outspread, grasping fingers, and it cast a shadow
on her face. "I might philosophize over that till morning," muttered
he. "Everything out of which life is constructed is a hand like that,
from which a shadow falls,--nothing more. But if there were a little
mercy besides, the child would not have died; but with what Vaskovski
says, you couldn't keep life in a sparrow."
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