"Now I confess that I was not right in attacking you. I recall
everything that I said, and I beg your pardon. You are wounded, but
I did not wish to wound you." After a moment, when he was going away
with Yamish and Vilkovski, he was heard to say, "As I love God most
sincerely, it was a pure accident; I intended to fire over his head."
Mashko did not open his mouth that day. To the question of the doctor
if the wound caused much pain, he merely shook his head in sign that it
did not.
Bigiel, who had just returned from Prussia with his pockets full of
contracts, when he heard all that had happened, said to Pan Stanislav,--
"Mashko seems an intelligent man, but, as God lives, every one of us
has some whim in his head. He, for example, has credit; he has many
splendid business cases; he might have a considerable income, and make
a fortune. But no, he wants to force matters, strain his credit to
the utmost, buy estates, give himself out as a great proprietor, a
lord,--be God knows what, only not what he is. All this is wonderful,
and the more so that it is so common. More than once I think that life
in itself is not bad, but that all ruin it through want of mental
balance, and certain devilish whims,--through a kind of wasp, which
every one has behind his collar. I understand that a man wants to have
more than he has, and to mean more than he means; but why strive for
it in fantastic fashion? I am first to recognize energy and cleverness
in Mashko; but, taking everything into consideration, he has something
here, as God is true, he has."
Bigiel now tapped his forehead with his finger a number of times.
Meanwhile Mashko, with set teeth, was suffering, since his wound,
though not threatening life, was uncommonly painful. In the evening
he fainted twice in presence of Pan Stanislav. Afterward, weakness
supervened, during which that boldness of spirit which had upheld the
young advocate through the day gave way completely. When the doctor
departed, after dressing the wound, Mashko lay quietly for a time, and
then began,--
"But I am in luck!"
"Do not think of that," answered Pan Stanislav; "thou wilt get more
fever."
But Mashko continued, however, "Insulted, ruined, wounded,--all at one
blow."
"I repeat to thee that this is no time to think of that."
Mashko rested his elbow on the pillow, hissed from pain, and said,--
"Never mind; this is the last time that I shall converse with a decent
man. One week or two from now I shall be of those whom people avoid.
What do I care for this fever? There is something so unendurable
in ruin so complete, in a wreck of fate so utter, that the first
idiot, the first goose that comes along will say: 'I knew that long
ago; I foresaw that.' So it is: all of them foresee everything after
the event; and of him whom the thunderbolt has struck, they make in
addition a fool, or a madman."
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