We were sitting before the hearth, the ashes lay cold upon it; the
old shrunken woman grasped my hand so tightly in hers that I could not
choose but stay. I looked fixedly at her, striving to read the story of
her life from the things among which she was crouching. Had she indeed
any life in her? It was a mystery. Yet I saw plainly that once she must
have been young and beautiful; fair, with all the charm of simplicity,
perfect as some Greek statue, with the brow of a vestal.
"Ah! ah!" I cried, "now I know thee! Miserable woman, why hast thou
prostituted thyself? In the age of thy passions, in the time of thy
prosperity, the grace and purity of thy youth were forgotten. Forgetful
of thy heroic devotion, thy pure life, thy abundant faith, thou didst
resign thy primitive power and thy spiritual supremacy for fleshly
power. Thy linen vestments, thy couch of moss, the cell in the rock,
bright with rays of the Light Divine, was forsaken; thou hast sparkled
with diamonds, and shone with the glitter of luxury and pride. Then,
grown bold and insolent, seizing and overturning all things in thy
course like a courtesan eager for pleasure in her days of splendor, thou
hast steeped thyself in blood like some queen stupefied by empery. Dost
thou not remember to have been dull and heavy at times, and the sudden
marvelous lucidity of other moments; as when Art emerges from an
orgy? Oh! poet, painter, and singer, lover of splendid ceremonies and
protector of the arts, was thy friendship for art perchance a caprice,
that so thou shouldst sleep beneath magnificent canopies? Was there not
a day when, in thy fantastic pride, though chastity and humility were
prescribed to thee, thou hadst brought all things beneath thy feet, and
set thy foot on the necks of princes; when earthly dominion, and
wealth, and the mind of man bore thy yoke? Exulting in the abasement of
humanity, joying to witness the uttermost lengths to which man's folly
would go, thou hast bidden thy lovers walk on all fours, and required
of them their lands and wealth, nay, even their wives if they were worth
aught to thee. Thou hast devoured millions of men without a cause; thou
hast flung away lives like sand blown by the wind from West to East.
Thou hast come down from the heights of thought to sit among the kings
of men. Woman! instead of comforting men, thou hast tormented and
afflicted them! Knowing that thou couldst ask and have, thou hast
demanded--blood! A little flour surely should have contented thee,
accustomed as thou hast been to live on bread and to mingle water with
thy wine. Unlike all others in all things, formerly thou wouldst bid thy
lovers fast, and they obeyed. Why should thy fancies have led thee to
require things impossible? Why, like a courtesan spoiled by her lovers,
hast thou doted on follies, and left those undeceived who sought to
explain and justify all thy errors? Then came the days of thy later
passions, terrible like the love of a woman of forty years, with a
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