Pain, most sincere and undisguised, not unmingled with actual pity,
was visible in Miss Gascoigne's countenance as she looked on the young
creature before her, to whom her words had caused such violent emotion.
For this emotion her narrow nature--always so ready to look on human
nature in its worst side, and to suspect wherever suspicion could
alight--found but one interpretation--guilt.
She drew back, terrified at what her interference had done. What if the
story should prove to be, not mere idle gossip, but actual scandal--the
sort of scandal which would cast a slur forever on the whole Grey
family, herself included?
There, above all, the fear struck home. Suppose she had meddled in
a matter which no lady could touch without indecorum, perhaps actual
defilement? Suppose, in answer to her entreaty, Christian should confide
to her something which no lady ought to hear? What a fearful position
for her--Miss Gascoigne--to be placed in! What should she say to Dr.
Grey?
Hard as her heart might be, this thought touched the one soft place in
it. Her voice actually trembled as she said,
"Your poor husband! what would become of him?"
Christian sprang up with a shrill cry. "Yes, yes I know what I will do,
I will go and tell my husband." Miss Gascoigne thought she was mad. And,
indeed, there was something almost frenzied in the way her victim rushed
from the room, like a creature driven desperate by misery.
Aunt Henrietta did not know how to act. To follow Christian was quite
beneath her dignity; to go home, with her mission unfulfilled, her duty
undone, that too was impossible. She determined to wait a few minutes,
and let things take their chance.
Miss Gascoigne was not a bad woman, only an utterly mistaken and
misguided one. She meant no harm--very few people do deliberately mean
harm--they only do it. She had set herself against her brother-in-law's
marriage--not in the abstract, she was scarcely so wicked and foolish
as that; but against his marrying this particular woman, partly because
Christian was only a governess, with somewhat painful antecedents--one
who could neither bring money, rank, nor position to Dr. Grey and his
family, but chiefly because it had wounded her self-love that she, Miss
Gascoigne, had not been consulted, and had had no hand in bringing about
the marriage.
Therefore she had determined to see it, and all concerning it, in the
very worst light to modify nothing, to excuse nothing. She had made up
her mind that things were to be so and so, and so and so they must
of necessity turn out. _Audi alteram partem_ was an idea that never
occurred, never had occurred, in all her life to Henrietta Gascoigne. In
fact, she would never have believed there could be "another side," since
she herself was not able to behold it.
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