Madge had a desire to say something, but she did not know what to say, a
burden lay upon her chest. It was that weight which presses there when
we are alone with those with whom we are not strangers, but with whom we
are not completely at home, and she actually found herself impatient and
half-desirous of solitude. This must be criminal or disease, she thought
to herself, and she forcibly recalled Frank’s virtues. She was so far
successful that when they parted and he kissed her, she was more than
usually caressing, and her ardent embrace, at least for the moment,
relieved that unpleasant sensation in the region of the heart. When he
had gone she reasoned with herself. What a miserable counterfeit of
love, she argued, is mere intellectual sympathy, a sympathy based on
books! What did Miranda know about Ferdinand’s ‘views’ on this or that
subject? Love is something independent of ‘views.’ It is an attraction
which has always been held to be inexplicable, but whatever it may be it
is not ‘views.’ She was becoming a little weary, she thought, of what
was called ‘culture.’ These creatures whom we know through Shakespeare
and Goethe are ghostly. What have we to do with them? It is idle work
to read or even to talk fine things about them. It ends in nothing.
What we really have to go through and that which goes through it are
interesting, but not circumstances and character impossible to us. When
Frank spoke of his business, which he understood, he was wise, and some
observations which he made the other day, on the management of his
workpeople, would have been thought original if they had been printed.
The true artist knows that his hero must be a character shaping events
and shaped by them, and not a babbler about literature. Frank, also, was
so susceptible. He liked to hear her read to him, and her enthusiasm
would soon be his. Moreover, how gifted he was, unconsciously, with all
that makes a man admirable, with courage, with perfect unselfishness!
How handsome he was, and then his passion for her! She had read
something of passion, but she never knew till now what the white
intensity of its flame in a man could be. She was committed, too,
happily committed; it was an engagement.
Thus, whenever doubt obtruded itself, she poured a self-raised tide over
it and concealed it. Alas! it could not be washed away; it was a little
sharp rock based beneath the ocean’s depths, and when the water ran low
its dark point reappeared. She was more successful, however, than many
women would have been, for, although her interest in ideas was deep,
there was fire in her blood, and Frank’s arm around her made the world
well nigh disappear; her surrender was entire, and if Sinai had thundered
in her ears she would not have heard. She was destitute of that power,
which her sister possessed, of surveying herself from a distance. On the
contrary, her emotion enveloped her, and the safeguard of reflection on
it was impossible to her.
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