French fiction -- Translations into English; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; Young men -- Fiction
They had brought forward chairs for us. The chamber was brilliantly
lighted by two candelabra, each containing five candles, placed upon the
table. This table, loaded with bottles and plates, had been pushed
against the wall to make room, there to await its opportunity to occupy
the middle of the apartment. The curtains of the bed were drawn; the
floor, the hangings and the furniture seemed to have been brushed and
washed with care. We were in the midst of luxury, in the midst of
festivity.
I was about to participate, for the first time, in one of those suppers
of which I had formerly dreamed in Provence. I was calm and
self-possessed. Laurence smiled and I was happy in her joy. There is in
the brightness of candles, in the sight of bottles red with wine, of
plates full of cakes and cold meats, in the sensation produced by a
close chamber, luminous and saturated with indefinable perfumes, a sort
of physical comfort which puts thought to sleep. My companion, her lips
parted, had, doubtless, again found well-known odors in that apartment.
As for me, I felt the blood flow with increased warmth and rapidity in
my veins; I experienced an inclination to laugh and drink, urged on by
my now thoroughly awakened nature.
Besides, the chamber was quiet, the bursts of gayety softened, the
entertainment decent and orderly. We drank a glass of Madeira, talking
with the utmost calmness. This tranquillity made me impatient, I was
tempted to cry out. The two young women had taken places beside
Pâquerette, and the trio were conversing in low tones. I heard the
broken voice of the old woman like a murmur, while Jacques was
explaining to me the reason of the festival. He had just passed an
examination successfully and was celebrating the event. He was more
expansive and less the practical man than usual; he abandoned his
customary gravity further, forgetting to talk of his future position,
going even so far as to speak of his youth. Jacques, to tell the plain
truth, was intoxicated with joy; he consented to play the fool, because
he was a step higher up on the ladder leading to wisdom.
Finally we went to table. I had waited for this moment. I filled my
glass and drank. I was exceedingly hungry, as was natural with a man who
lived on crusts; but I disdained the cakes and the cold meats; I turned
my attention to the wine, white or red. I did not drink from need of
intoxication, I drank for the sake of drinking, because it seemed to me
that I was there to empty my glass. I acquitted myself of that task most
conscientiously, and I experienced a sensation of joy on feeling my
limbs grow weaker little by little and my ideas become confused.
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