After a discourse of this kind, the other side of me would make answer:
“Colas, you talk like a printed book, but, none the less, I would give
my right hand for these things which you call nonsense; and I find more
life in the shadows of the men who died two thousand years ago, than in
those who move and breathe today. I feel that I know and love them, and
would consent to let Alexander kill me as he did Clytus, if afterward
he would come and weep over my body. It is all real to me; my heart is
in my throat when I see Cæsar in the Senate-house, his back against a
pillar like a stag at bay, the conspirators’ knives searching for his
life; and I am in ecstasy when Cleopatra floats by me in her gilded
barge, surrounded by Nereids and young pages, naked and beautiful as
the day. The perfumed breeze blows across my face, and I open my big
nostrils, the better to inhale the delicious fragrance.”
When at the end Antony is drawn up to the loophole in the tower,
bleeding, half dead; and his love, struggling with the heavy weight,
can hardly pull him in;--I really cannot bear it, and sob like a child!
What is it that moves me thus, and binds me to these men and women as
if to those of my own blood? except the fact that we are truly of one
family, we are Man, each and all of us.
I pity people from the bottom of my heart who know nothing of the
profound pleasure of books; they are like disinherited children, but
they do not know it, and boast that the present is enough for them.
Blind geese! who can see no farther than the end of their noses! Not
that I mean to deny the merits of the present; that would come with an
ill grace from one like me, who have always kept my hands and my mouth
open for anything good. No, those who find fault with the present are
ignorant, or else they have a poor digestion: I understand a man who
clasps all that he can reach to his heart, but there are those who
reach nothing worth while:--he who contents himself with little is of
small value; and I have always preferred to take the most that I could
get in life.
In Adam’s time the present was all very well; there were no clothes to
wear, and only one woman in the world; but life is fuller now, coming
as we do at the end of a long line of ancestors, heirs to all that they
have amassed, and we should be fools indeed to neglect the harvests of
the past, on the pretext that we can gather others.
I often dwell on the thought of Adam. He and I are really the same
person, only I am older and bigger; the same tree, but with more
branches. I feel every stroke of the woodman’s axe to my remotest leaf;
all the joys and sorrows of the world are mine; I laugh with them that
rejoice, and weep with them that weep; and this is especially true of
the world of books; there, more than in my own life, I feel the bond
that unites men, from prince to peasant.
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