England -- Fiction; Gay men -- Fiction; Italy -- Fiction; Paranormal fiction
“Aren’t you wrong not to trust me?” he said. “Hasn’t our meeting, and
what I hope will be our friendship been wonderfully contrived for us?...
How can I make you trust me? I am building, I may tell you, what my
ancestor left undone.”
At that he saw the man’s soul leap in fire to his face, and not only
without shame, but with pride, as to one who would appreciate, he told
his story. Ever since he was a boy, he had been conscious of his secret
love of evil just for its own sake. His own profanities horrified him,
and yet below his horror there was love. Under the whip of his horror he
had striven to mortify that lust for evil within his soul, and yet all
the time that he tried to suppress it he looked on himself not as a
sinner but as a martyr. He had taken orders in the Catholic Church, had
joined an English community with vows of obedience and chastity, and the
joy of sins, secret and abominable, became all the sweeter because, in
the name of all that was holy, he had renounced them. He found himself
like a spy in the camp of the enemy, talking their language, practising
their manœuvres, and making war on the powers to which his heart’s
allegiance was given. Only a few weeks ago, exposure had come, and he
left England for fear of a criminal prosecution....
All this came out in gasps and jerks of speech. Sometimes there was a
pause, and the pause would be succeeded by the pent, exultant torrent of
what had never been told yet. At the end, Colin got up.
“I see we shall be friends,” he said. “I will show you the book I spoke
to you of....”
All these things were welded together like links in a chain, the
discovery of the plan of the Sanctuarium, and then of the missal, and
then of the priest. Each linked on to the next. Indeed it would be an
imbecile who saw in these events a mere grouping of fortuitous
circumstances. And there was more, too, a chiselling and chasing of
these links, decorative detail you might say....
* * * * *
Nino, in spite of persuasions and threats, had gone, so soon to sicken
of the fever, and Colin had let it be known that he wanted a servant to
take his place. There were many applicants, for it had been seen how
Nino, just a barefooted boatman’s son, had become almost a signor
himself with fine clothes to wear and money to spend, and the friend and
companion as much as the servant of the marvellous youth rich and noble
and beautiful as a god, for the sake of whom, Capri made no doubt, the
English lady had popped herself over the high cliff. Among them was a
young Neapolitan, employed during the summer season as waiter at one of
the hotels, shrewd and monkey-like in face, some incarnation of pure
animalism. Hugh Douglas was with Colin when he came up to be
interviewed, and the boy made his obeisance as to a priest.
“Why do you do that?” asked Colin. “Why do you behave as if this
gentleman was a priest?”
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