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Dennis was sent up to bed when old Lady Yardley had had her two rubbers
of whist, and presently Mr. Douglas went too.
“And now we’re alone, Vi,” said Colin, “and I haven’t seen you for a
month. Mayn’t we have a little talk? In fact, I’ve got several things to
say. About Aunt Hester now.”
“Yes, I think you owe me an explanation of that,” said she.
“Darling, don’t talk about ‘owing explanations,’ in that way. You speak
as if I had run up a bill with you, and wouldn’t pay it. Probably that’s
just what you do think.”
Colin moved across to the fire where the traditional log smouldered.
“I hate explaining,” he said, “and really you can understand for
yourself. But if you insist on it, it’s this. Dennis asked me
point-blank why Aunt Hester never came to Stanier. Well, I couldn’t tell
him about her impertinence with regard to poor Pamela, her imagining
that I had an intrigue with her.... Good Lord, didn’t the sequel
exculpate me? An edifying incident, wasn’t it?”
“You know what I think about that,” said she.
“Yes: I remember your saying you wished I was in love with Pamela. And I
kept telling Pamela that I was in love with you. But she rushed on
disaster. Odd--I was thinking only this afternoon how long it was since
I had given a thought to Pamela, and now she comes up in connection
with Aunt Hester. Well, I couldn’t tell Dennis about that. You would
have been very much shocked with me if I had. I couldn’t tell him that
the woman was in love with me, and his mother wished I was in love with
her. Such a dreadful thing to tell a young boy at the most
impressionable age! You agree?”
“You distort it all,” she said. “But I agree.”
“Oh, distortion!” he said. “Everyone else’s point of view is distorted
when viewed from one’s own. We all have our own individual perspective,
which shews everybody else’s out of drawing. But, as you agree, I had to
give some other reason. I gave one that naturally occurred to me,
namely, that you resented and found unforgivable something poor Aunt
Hester had done. I was pleased when I thought of that.”
“You always think of everything,” she said.
“Yes, darling, I am pretty thorough. And you see why I was pleased,
don’t you?”
“Perfectly well. You wanted to give Dennis a new impression of me, as
being hard and unforgiving, and of yourself as kind.”
Colin softly clapped his hands.
“Ah! I knew you really understood,” he said. “I knew you didn’t need any
explanations. But why not have said so at first? You shewed you knew at
dinner.”
She moved the screen that stood by her. That might have been to shut out
of her eyes the flame that had broken out from the smouldering log, or
it might have been to shut out his face....
“I didn’t mean that when I asked for explanations,” she said. “The
explanation I wanted, if there was one, was any justification for what
you did.”
Colin stretched out his hand to the blaze; the shapely smooth fingers
looked redly luminous as the fire shone through them.
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