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On the last
night of the party, when all would disperse next morning, Colin meant to
call his attention to that, and, very carefully, to the contract on
which it depended. He knew now that Dennis would not leap to it, as he
himself, at that age, would have done, but, so he reflected, the
existence of Raymond, his elder twin, had even then schooled him in
hate. Dennis had had no such schooling and incentive....
But this was not all that that night had revealed. It had revealed in
himself a tenderness altogether alien to him. Even though he had been in
the act of loosing on the boy the force which was to befriend him, his
mere physical distress had sufficed to make him abandon that, and give
him the protection he sought. All this week that memory had lain in his
mind, and, below the occupations of the busy days, he had impatiently
considered it, cavilling at his own faint-heartedness. Probably,
certainly indeed, he had done wisely: the power with which he had sought
to surround Dennis must come to him, not in this nightmare guise, but as
a friendly and protecting influence; and to have continued then
directing it on him would have been a great mistake. It might even have
done some mental or spiritual hurt to the boy, for his whole nature had
been up in arms to resist it, and who knew what deadly struggle might
not have resulted? For the force which he had turned on him was no
pretty toy-like drawing-room mesmerism, you could not play with it and
try psychical experiments. It was a thing deadly and potent. Even when
it was not resisted, but welcomed and embraced, its passion could
manifest itself in disturbing and terrible ways, and Colin shuddered to
think of Dennis in the grip of it in such manner as he had before now
seen Vincenzo possessed when he served at the rites in the chapel. And
Dennis had not yielded to it, he had struggled and fought.... But that,
and Colin knew it, had not been the primary reason for his abandoning
that midnight assault. The primary and instinctive reason had been that
Dennis called to him with the insistent and compelling voice of love....
Strange, indeed, that he should have hearkened to it, for the voice of
love was most unmusical in his ears, and made not melody but
exasperating discord. Just so had it been with him when he came
unperceived, on the day of his return home, into the gallery, and found
Dennis and his mother there, happy and content for no reason except that
they were together. At that moment (how quick Violet had been to notice
it!) he had envied them, though he knew precisely what the ground of
their happiness was.
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