England -- Fiction; Gay men -- Fiction; Italy -- Fiction; Paranormal fiction
Love and he had nothing to do with each other. He did not desire to have
any commerce with love, either in giving or receiving. He had chosen,
and the reward of his choice was that he had everything else, as long as
his life lasted, but that. He had always hated love, and never would he
consciously or deliberately make terms with it. But it was as if some
shadowy semblance of it in the shape of Dennis had come silently and
burglariously up to his well-guarded house of hate, and opened the sash
of some unbolted window. He wanted Dennis’s love, because, as he had
seen, that would be a useful weapon, but Dennis must not gain entrance
to him....
He must make his house more secure. He had been careless, not seeing to
its safety. Not once since he had returned home had he been to the
chapel or strengthened himself in his allegiance by sign or symbol. He
remembered the glee with which he had built it, the glee with which he
had found the book of wondrous blasphemies, and knew that the edge and
keenness of his devotion was blunted. Was it this remissness which had
allowed the wraith of Dennis to slip open the window-sash, or was it
that this soft assault on his heart had caused the remissness? Of course
during these last two weeks it had been almost impossible to attend
these rites, but, as soon as the house was empty, he would make amends,
with the intention of the abhorrence of love in his heart. At midnight
now, the hour at which chiefly he used to love to attend the impious
celebration, some entertainment was in progress, and he could not leave
his guests, and, unlocking the door in his private study which
communicated with the corridor, move along it past those infamous
pictures with which it was decorated to the chapel. The altar with its
black cloth would be blazing with lights, and presently Father Douglas
robed only in that magnificent Italian cope would enter from his lodging
followed by his server, tossing fresh clouds of incense into the air.
He must resist this stealthy menace of winged love. He must spread nets
and lay traps for it, and, when it lay unresisting in his hand, squeeze
it with strangling fingers till it ceased to flutter.
CHAPTER III
A fancy-dress ball had been arranged for the last night. There were
already some forty guests in the house, who, as Colin said, would form
“a sort of nucleus,” and a special train was coming down from town
arriving at ten and going back at three in the morning, and invitations
had been sent to the neighbourhood for twenty miles round, with the hope
that ladies and gentlemen would be Elizabethan, but begging the ladies
not to be Elizabeth. Dozens of Elizabeths, he thought, of all shapes and
sizes with crumpled ruffs and jewels off crackers were bewildering, and
you collided with the Queen with improbable frequency. Instead Violet
was to be the sole Elizabeth present, and Dennis was to appear as her
young Colin in attendance.
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