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“I know that I’ve been weak,” he said, “and it’s a tonic you’ve given me
for my weakness. There’ll be no more complaint of my lack of fervour:
what has frightened you has put resolve and courage into me. You, and
your truckling submission! Why, I shall hear of you teaching in a Sunday
school next. Perhaps you’d like Dennis to come and sit under you. I’ll
wring the weakness out of my heart as you wring the last drop of
moisture from a wet cloth, and out of Dennis’s heart I’ll pluck the
weeds of love and plant the flowers of hate there, thick as the spring
daffodils on the hill-side.”
Colin broke off suddenly.
“Go away,” he said, “while you have time. If you stop here you’ll see
something that will curl you up like Vincenzo. It won’t be the face of
God, but it will be something you can’t bear. You’re trembling in every
limb now. By God, there’ll be two inquests instead of one if you stop
here! You’re afraid of me, as you said, and that’s very prudent of you.”
How the power surged and foamed through him: it was like fire and wine
in his veins, buoyant and intoxicating.
“I would kill you now,” he said, “except for the fuss and bother that
would involve me in. There’s one mysterious death to be investigated
already, and you may thank your luck that it is so.”
It was true enough that Douglas had shrunk before him, holding up his
arm as if to ward off some impending blow. But now he suddenly
straightened himself up, as if new force had nerved him, and in the
strength of that he stood steadfast and unafraid before the power that
flickered in Colin’s eyes.
“I was afraid of you,” he said, “but it was my blindness that made me
afraid. Now, _de profundis_, I call on God, whom I have mocked at and
defied, but in whom you believe just as I do. I daresay you could kill
my body, for that is mortal, it is weak with sin and defilement, but
against me you are powerless as hate in the presence of love. You know
that yourself. And one day you will be conquered and make your
submission, too. You will go down into hell, as I have done, and find
that God is there also.”
He waited a moment watching, now without dismay, the furious impotence
of the other’s face. But no word came from Colin, and presently he moved
to the door.
“Good-bye, Lord Yardley,” he said. “And God will have mercy on your soul
in spite of you.”
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