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For a moment he let himself visualise what manner of impotence would be
his at that hour. Just the power of hate would be left him, he thought,
and even the red of that would be fading, like the sunset outside, into
the grey encompassing mists, but surely as long as one touch of colour
remained there he would be hating the very existence of Stanier because
it was his no longer but Dennis’s, and hating Dennis for the dawning
pride of his ownership. How would he long then to summon some
cataclysmic force which would annihilate heritage and heritor alike!
What worse torment could there be for those uncharted aeons that should
follow, than to be condemned to exist, unseen and unheard here where he
stood now, and be actively aware of Dennis in possession with sons
growing up who would inherit after him, while he himself drifted
impalpably about, surrounded by the warmth of life which yet could not
thaw that ice-cold bubble that contained his consciousness? He must
school himself to think of Dennis enjoying all that had been torn from
him. Already Dennis was his potential foe, his supplanter....
It was time to eject these comfortless imaginings: all that he need
retain of them was this new conception of Dennis, for that surely might
prove an antidote to affection--and he went out of his room into the
long gallery, where Violet, all alone, was seated at her tea-table. She
put down the book she was reading as he sauntered up.
“Anyone dining to-night?” he said. “Or are you and Granny and I going to
spend a quiet evening of domestic bliss?”
She poured him out his cup of tea.
“We shall be alone as far as I know,” she said. “Would you like to ask
Mr. Douglas?”
Colin paused: that subject was one of those he had meant to put away
from him. But she should have it if she liked.
“Douglas has gone,” he observed.
“Gone?” asked she.
“Yes, I said ‘gone,’ didn’t I?” said Colin. “To spare you any more
questions, I don’t know where he’s gone, because he didn’t tell me.
Sometimes I thought he would be rather a good tutor for Dennis in his
holidays a little later on.”
He just glanced at Violet and saw she had understood.
“But that’s all over now,” he continued. “I shall have to conduct
Dennis’s holiday education myself.... Yes, the atmosphere of Stanier
didn’t suit Douglas. He was impolite enough to say that it was saturated
with me and that he couldn’t bear it for a moment longer. You’re
delighted I suppose, aren’t you?”
“I saw very little of him,” said Violet. “As you know, I didn’t like
him.”
“How very unchristian of you. What was the fault you found with him?”
“I don’t think we need go into that,” said she.
“How reticent you are, darling,” he said. “Sad, isn’t it, that there’s
so little mutual confidence and trust between us. I wonder if you’re
glad that Vincenzo has gone, too. Would you feel inclined to come to the
inquest with me, and say that Vincenzo was a lovable, God-fearing fellow
who had nothing on his mind, no fears, no worries?”
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