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Colin was sitting up alone that night after the others had gone
upstairs. He had been more brutal than usual with Dennis at dinner, and
for the first time he had seen Dennis bite his lip, obviously to keep
tears back.... But, in spite of all his pitiless persecution, he knew
that he was no nearer to the attainment of his purpose. As far as Dennis
himself was concerned, he had systematically and continuously hurt and
wounded him in that attempt to which he was committed, to kill his love,
but no failure could at present have been more complete. Often when the
whip of his tongue had been cruellest, and his cunning to hurt most
diabolical, he had looked at Dennis saying, “Well, answer me, can’t
you?” and Dennis had raised to him troubled and bewildered eyes in
which no spark of hate smouldered. There was no meekness about Dennis;
he could answer back with his head up, quite unsubdued and unafraid, but
in vain Colin looked for any sign that his love was ailing or like to
die. And occasionally when he relaxed, and gave him a kind word, love
leaped sparkling to his eyes and his beautiful mouth. What confirmed
this impression was the pride of the boy, for he never, as Colin knew,
uttered to his mother a single word of complaint, or went to her for
comfort. Little as Colin knew of love, he knew that here was the noble
pride of love, which would never admit failing or blemish in the object
of its high affection.
* * * * *
Colin opened the door on to the terrace and strolled out into the warm
pregnant night. There was something more indicative of failure than this
impregnable loyalty of Dennis’s, and that was his own unchanged
affection for the boy. In every possible way that could be devised by
his alert perceptive brain, he had wounded and injured Dennis’s heart,
and though there is no such royal road towards hate as to injure, he had
made no headway at all. His devotion to hatred, his vow to himself, so
faithfully kept, to all that was evil, had often made him bubble with
secret glee to see Dennis wince under those barbed attacks, but all the
time there existed that soft aching tenderness for him, so easy to
stifle but so impossible to smother. Like eternity, as he had sneered to
Douglas, it seemed of very durable stuff. All this fortnight’s
persecution had done nothing to break it up. Uninvited, it had entered
his heart, and nothing could stir it. He could act as if he had no other
feeling for the boy than this contemptuous aversion, but something
ached....
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