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Fierce was the stress of that possession. Colin withstood it, feeling
that if he yielded the very bonds of sanity would be loosed. If he went
back to Dennis’s room now, he would go as a devil unchained, ready and
eager to perpetrate any spiritual outrage and desecration, and who knew
whether the very balance and poise of Dennis’s being, whom he had just
left with all his serenity restored and the lamp of love bravely
burning, might not be upset altogether? Already he was scarcely in his
own control, and, maddened to an invincible lust of evil by the sight of
that tender victim, he might let himself cross the boundary which
separates the territories of human life from the untamed welter and
chaos of prodigious forces which both threaten and maintain it. He had
served Satan all his life alike in spirit and in works, and would serve
him still, but while this stress, which seemed like some dervish
possession, was on him, he could not trust himself with Dennis.
Something of irremediable violence might happen, some fatal laceration
of the fibres of the boy’s soul.
The crisis passed, leaving him conscious only of immense fatigue. There
had been a struggle, not between himself alone and this Satanic power,
but between it and something in himself, but not of himself, which
opposed it. He was too tired to think any more, and, throwing off his
clothes, sank into the dark of dreamless sleep.
He slept late, and waking brought with it a certain incredulousness at
his memory of the night before; what had happened seemed buried, at any
rate, under deep layers of consciousness, so that he could not handle
and examine it. Much more accessible was the memory of his weakness in
going in to Dennis at all. Whatever fruits might have ripened from this
fortnight’s harshness to the boy, were certainly frost-bitten now, for
Dennis knew, and hugged himself to know, that below these bleak
cruelties the father he loved existed still. It was a foolish thing to
have done, not only for that reason, but because he had weakened himself
in allowing that spasm of affection to assert itself. But it is never
too late, he thought, to mend foolishness by wise courses.
Dennis had finished breakfast when he got down, and he heard from Violet
that he had gone for a morning in the water, leaving an urgent message
for his father to follow.
“And the boy’s radiant this morning,” she said. “He told me you came
into his room last night and were ‘ripping,’ so he said.”
Colin was busy at the side table.
“Oh! What else did he say?” he asked.
“Just that. I am glad you did it. That couple of minutes made him forget
all the woes of these holidays.”
“Ah! He’s forgotten about them, has he?” said Colin.
“Absolutely; they’ve vanished. Oh yes, he wondered if I knew when you
and he were going; to Capri. I said you hadn’t told me.”
“I shall go to-morrow. But how it concerns Dennis, I don’t know, unless,
as is highly probable, he’s glad to get rid of me.”
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