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There was a power abroad then, Colin knew well, and if you were in tune
with it, you caught, like some wireless receiver, strange messages from
the midnight. Not less surely did he know that there was power abroad
for those who sought it, whenever above the altar the lamp burned before
the tabernacle that held the sacramental food, which is the Bread of
Angels. But unless your heart lay open in faith and loving adoration,
the power which in itself was infinite was no more than a fragment of
wafer, or a sip of wine: faith set that vast engine of love and
redemption at work, and across the sky, from horizon to zenith, the
worshipper beheld how Christ’s blood ‘streamed in the firmament,’ and
adored the divine miracle. So too with the power that whispered in the
pine and poured itself out on the midnight: unless you believed in it
and by faith laid hold on it, there was for you nothing there but the
night wind and the wheeling bats.
There was the truth of the legend, a truth eternal and irrevocable, a
matter of choice, not for him alone but for the whole world. He could
not so passionately have loved evil, if he had not known there was a
definite choice to be made. He might have drifted into any sort of sin
and self-indulgence from the mere fact that they were pleasant, but the
only thing that could have given him his furious zest for evil in
itself, was the terrible conviction of the existence of God. If evil had
been the dominant power in the world, he would, without the sense of
choice, have lain and soaked indolently in it, but he chose it because
he loved it, and because in its service he defied love.
Colin made no pretence of doubting the existence of good and evil and
the original living causes of them. They were principles perhaps, but
since they certainly lived, and daily and hourly manifested themselves,
he could not conceive of them otherwise than as Persons. With the same
faith that he believed in the power that inspired evil, he believed in
the power that inspired good, which had once been incarnate in man, and
in some mysterious way suffered for the redemption of those who desired
it. For those who believed (and Colin was among them), He was Love,
infinite in power, but choice was given to every man, and His Sacrament
of Love, to those who abhorred Love, became the Sacrament of Hate and
the adoration of evil. Those who had chosen thus could receive it in
mockery of love, and to them their derision was an act of faith, through
which they dedicated their powers and their will to the service of evil,
and drew therefrom the strength that inspired them.
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