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Colin got up to fetch the bottle. As he rose the catch of the shutters
gave way under the press of the wind; they swung wide, and with a
triumphant whoop the scirocco burst into the room, like some vivid
invisible presence. Colin laughed aloud with exultation, and ran to the
window, where he wrestled with the shutters. Then, just as suddenly,
there came a complete lull, and he fastened them back into place and
closed the windows.
“The wind has been wanting to come in all evening to join us,” he said.
“Now it has had its way, and it will be content. There’s your whisky:
now tell me all about the missal. You will have to let me see it, too.”
Mr. Cecil helped himself.
“Well, certainly it’s a curious book,” he said, “and I take an
antiquarian’s interest in it. But naturally that’s all. To you and me,
of course, it appears a mere farrago of ridiculous blasphemy, because,
though we’re delighted to amuse ourselves, eh? and perhaps are not
always as moral and monkish as we might be, we don’t want to be wicked
for the sake of wickedness.”
“Just so,” said Colin.
“In order to appreciate what the missal and the mass mean to the
worshippers,” continued Mr. Cecil, “we must try to imagine ourselves--if
it were possible--delighting in evil for its own sake. We must realize
that to such ruffians as these, evil is the Mecca of their every thought
and deed. They worship it, and, in consequence, detest and mock at all
that you and I hold sacred, though we may not live up to our beliefs.
Still we hold them.”
Colin was bubbling with amusement and impatience. He wanted Mr. Cecil to
get on, but, on the other hand, it was wonderfully diverting to hear him
talk like this. He took a hand in it.
“I think I can see what you mean,” he said. “These ruffians, as you so
rightly call them, are fanatics in the cause of evil. But do such people
really exist?”
“Yes, and all the time they believe in God,” said Mr. Cecil. “Their
creed is of defiance, as well as worship.”
Colin liked knowing that his theories of yesterday were so wonderfully
confirmed, but it was all stale stuff to him: Mr. Cecil was instructing
a master in the rudiments of his art.
“And now for the contents of the missal,” he said.
“As I say, it will seem to you only a farrago of blasphemy,” repeated
Mr. Cecil, “but interesting as a human, or rather a devilish, document.
It follows the English use, it is a parody in fact of the English use.
The exhortation, I remember, begins, ‘Ye that do truly and earnestly
delight you in your sins, and intend to lead a vile life’ and so forth.
Then follows the Confession, addressed, of course, to Satan ‘We
acknowledge and bewail’ so it runs ‘our manifold good deeds and loving
actions, which we from time to time have most grievously committed
against thy Divine Majesty, provoking, most justly, thy wrath and
indignation against us. We do earnestly repent’ ... it follows the words
of the Confession in our prayer-books.”
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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