American fiction -- 19th century; Short stories, American
“P’tit-Bleu,” I was told, “is ’collée’ with an
Englishman—but a grey-beard, mon cher—a gaga—an Englishman old
enough to be her grandfather.”
A stolid, implicit cynicism, I must warn you, was the mode of
the Quarter. The student who did not wish to be contemned for a
sentimentalist, dared never hesitate to believe an evil report, nor to
put the worst possible construction upon all human actions. Therefore,
when I was apprised by common rumour that during the dead season
P’tit-Bleu (for considerations fiscal, bien entendu) had gone to
live “collée” with an Englishman old enough to be her
grandfather—though, as it turned out, the story was the sheerest
fabrication—it never entered my head to doubt it.
At the same time, I confess, I could not quite share the humour of my
compeers, who regarded the circumstance as a stupendous joke. On the
contrary, I was shocked and sickened. I shouldn’t have imagined her
capable of that. She was a mere little animal; she had no soul; she
was bound, in the nature of things, to go from bad to worse, as I had
permitted myself, indeed, to admonish her, in the last conversation we
had had. “Mark my words, you will go from bad to worse.” But I had
thought her such a nice little animal; in my secret heart, I had hoped
that her progress would be slow—even, faintly, that Providence might
let something happen to arrest it, to divert it. And now....!
As a matter of fact, Providence had let something happen to divert
it; and that something was this very relation of hers with an old
Englishman, in which the scandal-lovers of the Latin Quarter were
determined to see neither more nor less than a mercenary “collage.”
The diversion in question, however, was an extremely gradual process.
As yet, it is pretty certain, P’tit-Bleu herself had never so much as
dreamed that any diversion was impending.
But she knew that her relation with the Englishman was an innocent
relation; and of its innocence, I am glad to be able to record, she
succeeded in convincing one, at least, of her friends, tolerably early
in the game.
In the teeth of my opposition, and at the expense of her own pride, she
forced an explanation, which, I am glad to say, convinced me.
I had just passed her and her Englishman in the street. They were
crossing the Boulevard St. Michel, and she was hanging on his arm,
looking up into his face, and laughing. She wore a broad-brimmed black
hat, with a red ribbon in it, and a knot of red ribbon at her throat;
there was a lovely suggestion of the same colour in her cheeks; and
never had her eyes gleamed with sincerer fun.
I assure you, the sensation this spectacle afforded me amounted to a
physical pain—the disgust, the anger. If she could laugh like that,
how little could she feel her position! The hardened shamelessness of
it!
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