And when he saw that she had not come down to the jetty to meet him, as
she had done on previous nights, he instantly accepted her absence as a
signal of change. Yet at the back of his mind there burned a thin bright
flame of intelligence that told him the truth. Evanthia had that supreme
virtue of the courageous--her dissimulation was neither clumsy nor
cruel. It was as much a part of her as was her skin, her hair, her amber
eyes. He knew in his heart this was so and made of it a rack on which he
tortured himself with thoughts of her fidelity. Each day the difference
between this experience and the shallow clap-trap intrigues he had known
became more marked to him. The thought of her out there, hidden away
from other men, with her delicious graces of body and lucidity of mind,
for him alone, was almost too poignant for him. As he came alongside the
little staging, and made fast, he returned again to the foreboding
thought of the day. There would come an end. And beyond the end of this
he could see nothing but darkness, nothing save an aching void.
Nevertheless, as he came up from the jetty and stood for a moment in the
road which followed the curve of the shore, and listened to the sounds
of the village that nestled in the valley like a few grains of light in
a great bowl of darkness, he was conscious of something which he could
not successfully analyze or separate from his tumultuous emotions. He
put it to himself, crudely enough, when he muttered: "I shall have to
take a hand." He was discovering himself in the act of submitting once
more to outside authority. Looking back over his life, he saw that as
his hitherto invincible habit of mind. He saw himself turning round to
call the captain. And now he was the captain. And Evanthia's enigmatic
gaze was perhaps the expression of her curiosity. She was above all
things in the world, stimulating. He found himself invigorated to an
extraordinary degree by his intimacy with that resourceful, courageous,
and lovable being, who would never speak of the future, waving it away
with a flick of her adorable hand and looking at him for an instant with
an intent, unfathomable stare. And as he started to climb the hillside,
setting the loose stones rolling in the gullies and rousing a dog to
give forth a series of deep ringing notes like a distant gong, he saw
that the initiative rested with himself. He would have to take a hand.
It would not do for him to imagine they could remain like this in almost
idyllic felicity. The ship would be unloaded in a week or so and nothing
would remain but to let the water into her after-hold and sink her,
according to the commandant's orders, in the fair way. But he could not
let himself sink back into a slothful obscurity. He had no interior
resources beyond his almost desperate passion for this girl who seemed
to accept him as an inevitable yet transient factor in her destiny, a
girl who conveyed to him in subtle nuances a chaotic impression of
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