Didactic fiction; Political fiction; Social problems -- Fiction
When at the end of the stipulated six months she refused him
again,--just as coldly as at first,--it was a bitter surprise to him. If
a man had acted so, Longman would have unhesitatingly called him a cad.
He went away to the mountains to think it out. In a week he was back,
proposing again. Once more she became angry. When she said "no," she
meant "no." She did not want to marry him and did not think she ever
would. He had asked to be her friend. Well. She enjoyed his friendship,
but if he was going to bother her every few days with distasteful
proposals of marriage it made friendship impossible. For two weeks he
struggled with himself in solitude, torn between his desire to see her
and his pride. Then he went to a meeting where he knew she would speak
and walked home with her.
So it had recommenced and so it had continued--in all three years. A
deep camaraderie had grown between them. They knew each other better
than many couples who have been married twice as long. But Longman could
see no progress towards the consummation he so earnestly desired. During
the three years there had been alternate moods of hope and despair. At
times he thought she surely must come to love him. At other times the
half loaf of intercourse tasted bitter as quinine. He told himself that
he was a weak fool, a spectacle for the gods to laugh at, hanging to the
skirts of a woman who had no care for him. At times he said, "Let all
the rest go hang, to-day's sweet friendship is better than nothing."
There were sad and angry moments when he paced up and down in his study
and cursed her and himself and his infatuation--and the next moment he
wanted to kiss the dust she had trod upon.
But steadily the torment of their relationship grew worse. More and more
insistent had become the idea of going away. Perhaps she would miss his
friendship and call him back. But he had been too deeply enslaved to
dare so drastic a revolt. However, that morning had brought him mail
which had suddenly crystallized this idea. He had resolved to put it to
the test.
"Mabel," he said as they entered Washington Square, "if you're not too
tired let's go up to the Lafayette for a while. I've got something
important to talk over with you."
A look of vexation crossed her face, which, with quick and painful
sensitiveness, he interpreted.
"No," he said gravely, "I won't bore you with any professions of
affection. It's a business matter on which I'd like your advice."
"Why not come up to the flat; we've some beer, and Eleanor's been making
some fudge. It's more comfortable than that noisy café."
"Very well, then," he said stiffly. "I'll leave you at your door."
"Now, Walter--don't be a fool. What are you so sour about to-night? You
haven't opened your mouth for six blocks."
"You know very well that I can't talk with "Saph" on the job--she hates
me. I'd like to talk this over with you."
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