Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story — John Shaqi
Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
Fortunately, in the case of Julia, the usual effects of maternal folly
and indiscretion did not ensue. Nature interposed to protect her, and
saved her in spite of them all. She was still the meek, modest
child, solicitous of the happiness of all around her--unobtrusive,
unassuming--kind to her inferiors, respectful to superiors, and
courteous to, and considerate of all other persons. Her advancing years,
which rendered these new acquisitions and accomplishments desirable, if
not necessary, at the same time prompted her foolish mother to another
step which betrayed the humiliating regard which she entertained for me.
When I was seventeen, Julia was twelve, and when neither she nor myself
had a solitary thought of love, the over considerate mother began to
think, on this subject, for us both. The result of her cogitations
determined her that it was no longer fitting that Julia should be my
companion. Our rambles in the woods together were forbidden; and Julia
was gravely informed that I was a poor youth, though her cousin--an
orphan whom her father's charity supported, and whom the public charity
schooled. The poor child artlessly told me all this, in a vain effort
to procure from me an explanation of the mystery (which her mother had
either failed or neglected to explain) by which such circumstances were
made to account for the new commands which had been given her. Well
might she, in her simplicity of heart, wonder why it was, that because I
was poor, she should be familiar with me no longer.
The circumstance opened my eyes to the fact that Julia was a tall
girl, growing fast, already in her teens, and likely, under the
rapidly-maturing influence of our summer sun, to be soon a woman. But
just then--just when she first tasked me to solve the mystery of her
mother's strange requisitions, I did not think of this. I was too much
filled with indignation--the mortified self-esteem was too actively
working in my bosom to suffer me to think of anything but the indignity
with which I was treated. A brief portion of the dialogue between the
child and my self, will give some glimpses of the blind heart by which I
was afflicted.
“Oh, you do not understand it, Julia. You do not know, then, that you
are the daughter of a rich merchant--the only daughter--that you have
servants to wait on you, and a carriage at command--that you can wear
fine silks, and have all things that money can buy, and a rich man's
daughter desire. You don't know these things, Julia, eh?”
“Yes, Edward, I hear you say so now, and I hear mamma often say the same
things; but still I don't see--”
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