Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
Weeks passed in this manner--weeks to me of misery--of annoyance and
secret suffering to my wife. In this time, my espionage resulted
in nothing but what has been already shown--in what was already
sufficiently obvious to me. William Edgerton continued his insane
attentions: he sought my dwelling with studious perseverance--sought it
particularly at those periods when he fancied I was absent--when he knew
it--though such were not his exclusive periods of visitation. He came
at times when I was at home. His passion for my wife was sufficiently
evident to me, though her deportment was such as to persuade mo that
she did not see it. All that I beheld of her conduct was irreproachable.
There was a singular and sweet dignity in her air and manner, when they
were together, that seemed one of the most insuperable barriers to any
rash or presumptuous approach. While there was no constraint about
her carriage, there was no familiarity--nothing to encourage or invite
familiarity. While she answered freely, responding to all the needs of
a suggested subject, she herself never seemed to broach one; and, after
hours of nightly watch, which ran through a period of weeks, in which
I strove at the shameful occupation of the espial, I was compelled
to admit that all her part was as purely unexceptionable as the most
jealous husband could have wished it.
But not so with the conduct of William Edgerton. His attentions were
increasing. His passion was assuming some of the forms of that delirium
to which, under encouragement, it is usually driven in the end. He now
passionately watched my wife's countenance, and no longer averted his
glance when it suddenly encountered hers. His eyes, naturally tender in
expression, now assumed a look of irrepressible ardency, from which, I
now fancied--pleased to fancy--that hers recoiled! He would linger long
in silence, silently watching her, and seemingly unconscious, the while,
equally of his scrutiny and his silence. At such times, I could perceive
that Julia would turn aside, or her own eyes would be marked by an
expression of the coldest vacancy, which, but for other circumstances,
or in any other condition of my mind, would have seemed to me conclusive
of her indignation or dislike. But, when such became my thought, it
was soon expelled by some suggestion from the busy devil of my
imagination:--
“They may well put on this appearance now; but are such their looks when
they meet, sometimes for a whole morning, in the painting-room?” Even
here, the fiend was silenced by a fact which was revealed to me in one
of my nocturnal watches.
“Clifford not at home?” said Edgerton one evening as he entered,
addressing my wife, and looking indifferently around the room. “I
wished to tell him about some pictures which are to be seen at ----'s
room--really a lovely Guido--an infant Savior--and something, said to be
by Carlo Dolce, though I doubt. You must see them. Shall I call for you
tomorrow morning?”
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