Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic StorySimms, William Gilmore
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Confession; Or, The Blind Heart. A Domestic Story
Simms, William Gilmore
Domestic fiction
I can not repeat her words. They rang in my ears, understood, indeed,
but so wildly and thrillingly, that I should find it a vain task to
endeavor to remember them. She spoke of persecution, annoyance, beyond
propriety, beyond her powers of endurance. She threatened me--for I
assumed myself to be the object of her denunciation--with the wrath of
some one capable to punish--nay, to rescue her, if need be, by violence,
from the clutches of her tyrant. Then followed another change in her
course of speech. She no longer threatened or denounced. She derided.
Words of bitter scorn and loathing contempt issued from those bright,
red, burning, and always beautiful lips, which I had never supposed
could have given forth such utterance, even if her spirit could have
been supposed capable of conceiving it. Keen was the irony which she
expressed--irony, which so well applied to my demerits in one great
respect, that I could not help making the personal application.
“How manly and generous,” she proceeded, “was this sort of persecution
of one so unprotected, so dependent, so placed, that she must even be
silent, and endure without speech or complaint, in the dread of dangers
which, however, would not light upon her head. Oh, brave as generous!”
she exclaimed, with a burst of tremendous delirium, terminating in a
shriek; “oh, brave as generous!--scarcely lion-like, however, for the
noble beast rushes upon his victim. He does not prowl, and skulk, and
sneak, watching, cat-like; crouching and base, in stealth and darkness.
Very noble, but mousing spirit! Beware! Do I not know you now! Fear you
not that I will show your baseness, and declare the truth, and guide
other eyes to your stealthy practice? Beware! Do not drive me into
madness!”
Thus she raved. My conscience applied these stinging words of scorn,
which seemed particularly fitted to the mean suspicious watch which I
had kept upon her. I could have no thought that they were meant for any
other ears than my own, and the crimson flush upon my cheeks was the
involuntary acknowledgment which my soul made of the demerits of my
unmanly conduct. I fancied that Julia had detected my espionage, and
that her language had this object in reference only. But there were
other words; and, passing with unexpected transition from the language
of dislike and scorn, she now indulged in that of love--language timidly
suggestive of love, as if its utterance were restrained by bashfulness,
as if it dreaded to be heard. Then a deep sigh followed, as if from the
bottom of her heart, succeeded by convulsive sobs, at last ending in a
gushing flood of tears.
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