Conrad in Quest of His Youth: An Extravagance of TemperamentMerrick, Leonard
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Conrad in Quest of His Youth: An Extravagance of Temperament
Merrick, Leonard
Theater -- Great Britain -- Fiction
He was called "Mon cher," and other things. He puffed his "caporal" at
the Café Vachette, and found that he had lost his relish for French
tobacco; he sat among the cards and the dominoes at the Café
d'Harcourt--bought carnations and écrevisses from the pedlars' baskets
for Angèle and Suzanne; and Angèle and Suzanne proved witless compared
with what their mothers had been, and he noted--not without some slight
pride, for we are all patriotic abroad--that though the art of tying a
veil has been granted to French women, the pretty features have been
granted to the English.
It was now that the disappointment fell, now that he cried:--
"'Oh for one hour of youthful joy!
Give back my twentieth spring!'"
The ardour of the students left him chilly, the rodomontades of his
compatriots sounded merely stupid. They were all going to sacrifice
themselves for an ideal, all going to England to paint persistently the
class of work that England did not want. "No concessions" was their
battle cry. Youth can never believe that it will live to make
concessions. Your adept finds nowhere so scathing a critic as your
novice.
O beautiful time when he, too, had imagined he was born with a mission!
Bright morning when he had vapoured with the vainest! This afternoon
the Rapsodie Anglaise was played to duller ears. The freaks seemed
joyless, and he said the aspirations were "out of drawing." He was not
sure that it was of immense importance whether one painted well, or
ill--whether one painted at all. There were more useful things to be
done in the world. He did not wish to do them, but he suggested that
they were there. Then the audience hurled passages from the preface to
"Mademoiselle de Maupin" at him--without acknowledgment--pelting him
with the paragraphs full of shoes and potatoes until he was dizzy, and
perhaps a little shaken. After all, when one has failed to pluck the
grapes it is easy to proclaim that potatoes are more nourishing. On
the whole he was scarcely a success in the Quarter--a success of
curiosity at most--and he won no converts to his theory (advanced in
the Soleil D'Or) that the greatest services to modern art were rendered
by the writers of ladies' fashion articles.
"They are the Teachers who make the widest school," he urged. "Under
their influence the fairest work of Nature takes an added loveliness.
To them we owe the enticements of the tea-gown, the soul-compelling
whisper of the silk petticoat. What other apostle of Beauty can hope
to shed beauty in every home? Into how many homes do you suppose your
ballades will go?" He was chatting to a poet. But the poet became
diffuse.
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