Country life -- England -- Fiction; Short stories, English; Working class -- England -- Fiction
She sighed; the assertion made it plainer than ever to her in what
condition they had last seen him. She drew the old shawl that she had
caught up in her haste tightly round her elbows and shivered.
“You go ’ome to the childer,” said the man kindly. “They be little uns;
they needs ye most, ye know.”
“Thank ye,” retorted she sharply, “I knows best for myself where’s I be
most needed. The childer’s in bed and asleep these hours gone.”
And she turned back to her old place by the wall, leaning on it and
gazing down into the marsh.
The men walked on, and were gone in the mist.
It was the last mortification that could be laid on her—that folk should
_know_—what she had known for long. But she was too actually sodden with
misery to care as she would have cared a year or two ago. For she knew
it—oh, yes, she knew it all! But she had never let any one guess that
she knew it, least of all him. Perhaps it was because of her pride, as
the man had surmised; perhaps it was because she had a vague hope that
by silence and patience she would best strengthen the thread that still
held him to her. She was only a simple woman, but she understood him
pretty well, and she knew that the thread was there; she knew that it
was weakness that led him away from her—weakness fortified by evil
counsel and evil comradeship. And in the darkness she clenched her poor
horny little hand and prayed that she might be even with Casey some day.
And meanwhile she waited, shivering in the fog, and her heart went out
in passionate longing to the man who was faithless to her, who neglected
her, who squandered her earnings, and was slowly bringing her to the
grave. Wilson had said: “It’s past crediting what some women’ll look
over in the man they love!”
But the minutes flew fast and grew into a long hour, and there was no
sign of Jerry, and at last the wife had to remember the mother and go
home to the babes.
Little Sue stirred.
“Be that father?” asked she drowsily.
“No, dear, not yet. You go to sleep,” said the mother,
“But ye won’t fret, mother, will you?” said the child again.
“Oh, no, dear, I won’t fret,” promised the poor soul, though her voice
would have given the lie to her words had the child not been dulled with
healthy weariness.
The little one turned round in bed, and the mother sat herself by the
window wrapping her shawl more closely around her.
But she did not keep her promise—she did fret. She sat and rocked
herself to and fro, and thought of all she might have done which she had
not done, and of all she had done that would have best been left undone.
Yes, she had worried him; she had been too sharp, too fretful. She had
not been able to make life gay for him—there were always so many cares;
and he hated cares and loved gaiety.
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