Country life -- England -- Fiction; Short stories, English; Working class -- England -- Fiction
Slowly—for he was cold and stiff though it was a June night—he dragged
himself to the door and locked and bolted it. Then he went to the recess
in which stood the child’s cot, and drew the curtains in front of
it—curtains which he had put up with his own hand to keep her tiny
chamber sacred, and to shield her tender little head from the night
draughts.
After he had done that, he let himself drop wearily into his old chair
by the empty hearth, and sat gazing vacantly into the dead embers. He
could not think—he was stunned; only he felt old for the first time—very
old, older than his fifty odd years.
Without, the summer night had, for a short space, dropped the whole
cloak of its darkness upon the wide plain. Unconsciously, he was glad of
it: glad that the moon was hidden behind a deep bank of cloud that had
overlapped the horizon and was gradually creeping up the sky: glad that,
as he looked through the door, left open because of the heat, he could
scarcely make out the cabbages and sweet-peas in his terrace garden:
glad that the darkness covered him—that the earth could not see his
misery.
He sat, stupid, almost senselessly stupid, not trying to realize his
woe. But gradually the blood flowed back to his brain, and with it the
power of thought came to him; the woman’s words, though he had scarcely
been conscious of them all at the time, came dropping back into his
recollection, and, with the remembrance of each careless thrust, the
tide of his conviction slowly but surely gathered strength till it
flooded his reason and rushed in at last and swamped his soul in
terrible certainty.
He had told the woman to get out of his house, he had longed to kill her
for what she had said—but it was not because he had not believed her.
Alas! if he had not believed her perhaps he could have done it! But from
the first word that she had spoken an awful fore-knowledge that he
should have to _come_ to believe her had been borne in upon him.
Yes, Ben Forester, the good-looking, easy-going, pleasant-spoken
sailor-lad whom his wife had known all her life down at the Harbour, who
had been away at sea when he had wooed her—but who had come back—who had
come back!
But why, if she loved Ben, had she married him? The answer was easy
enough. She had a brute of a drunken father, and neither kith nor kin
beside. Her only chance of escape from a life of slavery, spiced with
blows, was marriage, and—fancied as she had been by many—he was the only
one who had offered her that. Ben was a rolling stone that gathered no
moss, and he was sure enough Ben had never offered her marriage. Why,
yes, she had told him the very day he asked her last, that his was the
only offer she had had!
He could hear her now, aye, and see her too! There—down on the beach, on
a warm October night with the after-glow, still a fire in the west,
casting rosy reflections over the sea, and the harvest moon rising red
behind the hill.
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