Country life -- England -- Fiction; Short stories, English; Working class -- England -- Fiction
He thanked Him for the dew of that summer morning that had cooled his
rage and taught him, at least, to wait; but of late when he thought of
it and brooded on his grief, another sense but that of mere selfish
regret at his loss mingled with his weight of weary loneliness: the
sense of _her_ loss, the realization of what the neighbours had
remembered but he had forgotten till now, that it “weren’t ’er fault,”
and that it did seem “rough on a child.”
Rough on a child! A child! A creature who had not desired to come into
this world—who would have, sure enough, to fight its cruel thrusts in
later life, but who might have a few years of complete happiness—of time
in which to grow strong and beautiful and valiant.
To whom could this child look to give her these short years of happiness
that were hers by right?
He looked around him on the village children, who had once been her
comrades: they were sick sometimes, they were sometimes hungry, they
were often cuffed and scolded in the haste of a moment’s vexation, but
they were all of them beloved. There was always some one to pick them up
where they fell, to comfort them when they suffered, to bid them play
and be glad.
Who was there to comfort this motherless child now that he had forsaken
her?
He paid that she should be fed—that she should be clothed; but who
pitied her in her childish troubles, who heard her prayers and gave her
her morning and evening kiss,—who loved her?
And yet she, whom he had doated on and spoiled to his heart’s delight,
was she not likely to crave love more than any of them?
"Ye’ll make ’er that tender and fearsome she won’t be fit to stand up to
the world"—his enemy, Mrs. Goodenough, had many a time said to him.
He had hated her for her warning and had spurned it, thinking that he
had plenty of time to harden her to the world in future. But was it fair
now that he had made her tender, that he should leave her to stand up to
the world before she was fit?
The thought troubled him sore, and on this Sabbath evening, as the cruel
bells sang their cruel tune: “It ain’t ’er fault no ways, Tom,” it
troubled him more than ever.
What was she doing?—who was making the day of rest sweet to her?
And instead of asking himself bitterly why God had saved her from death
that He might take her from him after all and leave him desolate, he
asked himself why _he_ had snatched her from the river that he might
forsake her in her helplessness the very next day? And a heartbreaking
picture rose up before him of his little maid thin and sad, hungering
for love, pining for him—unconsciously made to feel, in her childish
sensitiveness, that she was different from other children; set apart by
something that she could not understand, to be less loved—perhaps even
to be shunned, despised, neglected! His pretty Daisy—his good little
maid—who had never done any harm!
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