England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
The minister shut the book to hastily, and stood up. Then I saw how
angry he was.
“For the best, do you say? It was best, was it, to go and tell a young
girl what you never told a word of to her parents, who trusted you like
a son of their own?”
He began walking about, up and down the room close under the open
windows, churning up his bitter thoughts of me.
“To put such thoughts into the child’s head,” continued he; “to spoil
her peaceful maidenhood with talk about another man’s love; and such
love, too,” he spoke scornfully now—“a love that is ready for any young
woman. Oh, the misery in my poor little daughter’s face to-day at
dinner—the misery, Paul! I thought you were one to be trusted—your
father’s son too, to go and put such thoughts into the child’s mind;
you two talking together about that man wishing to marry her.”
I could not help remembering the pinafore, the childish garment which
Phillis wore so long, as if her parents were unaware of her progress
towards womanhood. Just in the same way the minister spoke and thought
of her now, as a child, whose innocent peace I had spoiled by vain and
foolish talk. I knew that the truth was different, though I could
hardly have told it now; but, indeed, I never thought of trying to
tell; it was far from my mind to add one iota to the sorrow which I had
caused. The minister went on walking, occasionally stopping to move
things on the table, or articles of furniture, in a sharp, impatient,
meaningless way, then he began again,—
“So young, so pure from the world! how could you go and talk to such a
child, raising hopes, exciting feelings—all to end thus; and best so,
even though I saw her poor piteous face look as it did. I can’t forgive
you, Paul; it was more than wrong—it was wicked—to go and repeat that
man’s words.”
His back was now to the door, and, in listening to his low angry tones,
he did not hear it slowly open, nor did he see Phillis, standing just
within the room, until he turned round; then he stood still. She must
have been half undressed; but she had covered herself with a dark
winter cloak, which fell in long folds to her white, naked, noiseless
feet. Her face was strangely pale: her eyes heavy in the black circles
round them. She came up to the table very slowly, and leant her hand
upon it, saying mournfully,—
“Father, you must not blame Paul. I could not help hearing a great deal
of what you were saying. He did tell me, and perhaps it would have been
wiser not, dear Paul! But—oh, dear! oh, dear! I am so sick with shame!
He told me out of his kind heart, because he saw—that I was so very
unhappy at his going away.” She hung her head, and leant more heavily
than before on her supporting hand.
“I don’t understand,” said her father; but he was beginning to
understand. Phillis did not answer till he asked her again. I could
have struck him now for his cruelty; but then I knew all.
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