Thus would I double my life’s fading space,
For he that runs it well twice runs his race.
And in this true delight,
These unbought sports, this happy state,
I would not fear, nor wish my fate,
But boldly say each night,
To-morrow let my sun his beams display
Or in clouds hide them—I have lived to-day.
You may see by it I was even then acquainted with the poets (for the
conclusion is taken out of Horace), and perhaps it was the immature and
immoderate love of them which stamped first, or rather engraved, these
characters in me. They were like letters cut into the bark of a young
tree, which with the tree still grow proportionably. But how this love
came to be produced in me so early is a hard question. I believe I can
tell the particular little chance that filled my head first with such
chimes of verse as have never since left ringing there. For I remember
when I begun to read and to take some pleasure in it, there was wont to
lie in my mother’s parlour. (I know not by what accident, for she
herself never in her life read any book but of devotion), but there was
wont to lie Spenser’s works; this I happened to fall upon, and was
infinitely delighted with the stories of the knights, and giants, and
monsters, and brave houses, which I found everywhere there (though my
understanding had little to do with all this); and by degrees with the
tinkling of the rhyme and dance of the numbers, so that I think I had
read him all over before I was twelve years old, and was thus made a poet
as immediately as a child is made an eunuch. With these affections of
mind, and my heart wholly set upon letters, I went to the university, but
was soon torn from thence by that violent public storm which would suffer
nothing to stand where it did, but rooted up every plant, even from the
princely cedars to me, the hyssop. Yet I had as good fortune as could
have befallen me in such a tempest; for I was cast by it into the family
of one of the best persons, and into the court of one of the best
princesses of the world. Now though I was here engaged in ways most
contrary to the original design of my life, that is, into much company,
and no small business, and into a daily sight of greatness, both militant
and triumphant, for that was the state then of the English and French
Courts; yet all this was so far from altering my opinion, that it only
added the confirmation of reason to that which was before but natural
inclination. I saw plainly all the paint of that kind of life, the
nearer I came to it; and that beauty which I did not fall in love with
when, for aught I knew, it was real, was not like to bewitch or entice me
when I saw that it was adulterate. I met with several great persons,
whom I liked very well, but could not perceive that any part of their
greatness was to be liked or desired, no more than I would be glad or
content to be in a storm, though I saw many ships which rid safely and
bravely in it.
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