England -- Social life and customs -- Fiction; Guardian and ward -- Fiction; Orphans -- Fiction
He was in a fever for the whole of that week. For the first time, he was
going to taste liberty: he was young, ardent, restless by nature, quiet
by force of circumstances; no wonder the prospect enchanted him. I was in
one sense happy to see him happy, but I felt acutely that he was going
away from us. He was gay and cheerful, I did not want to sadden him with
the sight of a grief I could not help feeling, and I shunned rather than
sought his company. Thus, two days before the day fixed for his
departure, instead of remaining with him and Kate in the back parlour
where they sat talking by the open window, I went out into the garden to
indulge in a good fit of crying. In the stillness of the evening I could
hear every word of their discourse. Either they did not know this or they
forgot it, for after dwelling enthusiastically on his prospects,
Cornelius added suddenly--
"How unwell Daisy looks!"
"She is fretting about you. The poor child is fonder of you than ever,
Cornelius."
"Do you think so?" he earnestly replied.
"Of course I do. She frets, tries to hide it, and cannot; and you know,
Cornelius, it is only beauty looks lovely in tears."
"She is not a beauty, but she has fine eyes."
"Spite of which you cannot call her pretty, Cornelius."
He sighed and did not contradict it.
"I know you did not think so," continued Kate.
"Oh! Kate!" he interrupted with another sigh, "why, any one can see the
poor child is only getting plainer as she grows up!"
"Never mind," cheerfully said Kate.
"But she may mind, and she will mind too. If the women slight and the men
neglect her, how can she but mind it?"
"The plain have a happiness of their own," quietly replied Kate. "God
looks kindly on them and they learn to despise the rude harshness of the
world." With this she began talking to Cornelius of his journey.
I was then near fifteen. I remember myself well,--a thin, slim girl,
awkward, miserably shy and nervous, with sunken eyes, a face more sallow
than ever, and hair scarcely darker in hue than when Miriam Russell had
aptly called it straw-coloured. I knew my own disadvantages quiet well, I
was accustomed to them, and though I quailed a little when I heard
Cornelius and Kate thus settle the delicate question of my looks, it was
only for awhile. It is true that the taunts of Miriam had formerly
exasperated me, because it was by her beauty that she had conquered and
replaced me in the heart of Cornelius; but with her power vanished the
sting of my plainness. The little emotion I felt was over when Cornelius
stepped out into the garden to indulge in a cigar.
On seeing me, he looked much disconcerted. I daresay he thought I must be
cut to the quick by what I had heard; for though he did not allude to it,
he sat down on the wooden bench, made me sit by him, and was so unusually
kind that I could not help being a little amused. I allowed myself to be
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