"They say I am better; but, Daisy, I know the time is near for me to go.
I shall never get well, and I do not wish to, though life is not a gift
to be thrown away easily, and on some accounts mine has been a happy
one, but the life beyond is better, and I feel sure I am going to it."
"Oh, Tom, Tom, don’t talk so. You must not leave me now," Daisy cried,
all her composure giving way as she fell on her knees beside him, and
taking both his hands in hers wet them with her tears. "Tom," she began,
when she could speak, "I have been bad to you so often, and worried and
wounded you so much; but I am sorry, so sorry,—and I’ve thought it all
over real earnestly and seriously, and made up my mind, and I want you
to get well and ask me that,—that—question again,—you have asked so many
times,—and—and—Tom,—I will say—yes—to it now, and try so hard to make
you happy."
Her face was crimson as if with shame, and she dared not look at Tom
until his silence startled her. Then she stole a glance at him, and met
an expression which prompted her to go on recklessly:
"Don’t look so incredulous, Tom. I am in earnest. I mean what I say,
though it may be unmaidenly to say it. Try me, Tom. I will make you
happy, and though at first I cannot love you as I did Guy when I sent
him that letter, the love will come, born of your great goodness and
kindness of heart. Try me, Tom, won’t you?"
She kissed his thin white hands where the freckles showed more plainly
than ever, and which Tom tried to free from her; she held them fast and
looked steadily into the face, which shone for a moment with a joy so
great that it was almost handsome, and when she said again: "Will you,
Tom?" the pale lips parted with an effort to speak, but no sound was
audible, only the chin quivered and the tears stood in Tom’s eyes as he
battled with the temptation. Should he accept the sacrifice? It would be
worth trying to live for, if Daisy could be his wife, but ought he to
join her life with his? Could she ever learn to love him? No, she could
not, and he must put her from him, even though she came asking him to
take her. Thus Tom decided, and turning his face to the wall, he said
with a choking sob:
"No, Daisy. It cannot be. Such happiness is not for me now. I must not
think of it, for I am going to die. Thank you, darling, just the same.
It was kind in you and well meant, but it cannot be. I could not make
you happy. I am not like Guy; never could be like him, and you would
hate me after a while, and the chain would hurt you cruelly. No, Daisy,
I love you too well,—and yet, Daisy,—Daisy,—why do you tempt me so,—if
it could be, I might perhaps get well, I should try so hard."
He turned suddenly toward her, and winding both his arms around her,
drew her to him in a quick, passionate embrace, crying piteously over
her, and saying:
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