The spirit-girl realized that the time had come for her to speak, but
she could not force her tongue. Gone was her self-reliance of the early
dawn. She had come prepared, but not for this. Overwhelmed she felt by
his declaration as she had not been by his threats.
The sensation was familiar; recalled those days of uncertainty in the
Cabot home when she had been tried by the evasive ways of John. Then
her fear had been for him and, through him, for herself. Now he and she
were included only as infinitesimal atoms in the universal disaster
that impended.
Look high as Heaven, look low as Hell, she was afraid.
“How dark it is growing!” She shuddered.
“Is it so dark you cannot see that I am on my knees, still asking you?”
“How can you ask me, when you know where my heart belongs?”
His lips lifted over his fang-like teeth, in sudden reversion to type.
“No heart that I want can belong anywhere else,” he snarled. “You have
seen that mongrel lover of yours turn yellow with cowardice.”
“I have seen him,” she corrected, “conquer cowardice.”
“We won’t quibble. The obstinacy of the female heart is more often a
fault than a virtue. Open your mind to conviction. Can you imagine
me feeling cowardice? I’ve tried to give you an idea of how bad I
am. At least I have shown enough inherent evil to awaken some slight
admiration.”
“But our standards are very different, Your Lowness. I don’t admire
this ruthlessness you boast. The sensations from love and hate are very
much alike, they say. Isn’t it possible that you are mistaken in the
absolutism of your wickedness? Don’t you suppose that you are capable
of a pulse-beat of mercy for one who----”
The flash of lightning that shivered through the thickening gloom of
the great room seemed to illuminate her broken query with significance.
The answering rumble of thunder was no less menacing than his reply.
“This is heresy. You weaken your capacity for sin with every such
thought. Good as you are, I’ll make you in time bad as I am. As the
queen-consort you shall become the wickedest thought of my mind, the
most vicious desire of my soul. Deadlier than death, you shall give and
keep giving life to my love. Undying love--that would be a delicate
morsel, would it not, little gourmet of the hearts of men?”
“All real love is undying,” she maintained.
Her eyes held on the distant curtain. Its alternating electric stripes
were writhing like snakes, as if tormented by a wind stronger than its
dynamo.
“At least, passion is not. Undying passion--that would be something new
even to you, eh? Do you remember, siren, my mention of an ‘experiment’?”
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