On Earth she had lived down certain inherent tendencies because she had
not understood. From His Highness’ first touch she had trembled, even
as on that day in Dr. Willard’s study when she had implored the hunting
parson of All Mankind to teach her the religion said to cover game like
her from just such hunters as he. The carnality of mortals she had come
to excuse because component of the flesh. Since, instead, it was shown
her to be component of the mind--since she was protected no longer by
her innocence--since here in the inter-world she was hunted by the most
expert of mental sportsmen----
Dolores strove for perspective. How ghoulish an ambition, this desire
of Satan for desire! What could be more inhuman than a passion of the
imagination without hope? And yet he hoped. _What_ was his hope?
An odious thrill answered the question--a thrill which she knew to
be the first farthing of the price she was to pay. The sum total,
then, would be the development of her evil possibilities to the utter
obliteration of the good. All that she had saved of her better self
from her late estate was to be burned to dross by that recognized
flicker of passion which had lit this conflagration. The King, by the
heat of his diabolical imaginings, would kindle, then fan her with the
winds of his swift thought. Her spiritual inflammability was her real
value to him, as had been that of her body to men. He had praised, as
had they, her beauty, her _naïveté_, her teasing silences, but had
passed without a glance others as exceptional as she. That worst of her
which, in the physical, had wrecked her chances on Earth, would wreck
those mental which she still had hoped to realize in Shadow Land. Even
though she saved The Day to the Great-I-Am, she would not by then be a
fit subject for reward. Spiritually ruined, she would be no mate for
John Cabot. Well it was that she had not known in time the fullness of
the price, else might she have been too niggard-souled to contract to
pay.
Forewarned in these premonitions of her fate, the spirit-girl felt, as
never in the past, her own impotency. Innocentia gone, the love-lad
Amor gone, her babe, gallant Old Sam, and now John--all who might
have helped her she had sent beyond recall. Evil expectation was a
compelling force; that she had learned from Clarke Shayle. Even now,
the Master Mind was compelling her--vehemently, evilly expecting of
her. Would she give?
“I am a perfectly free immoral agent,” His Majesty boasted. “You
believe that, don’t you, my poor child? I can seize your mind and hold
it to the last split-second of Eternity, whether you will or no. You
liked that molecule of suppressed power in your love-hound. Aren’t you
appealed to by the fact that I am at this moment suppressing all the
molecules of power that have run the world?”
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