Daughters of Belgravia; vol. 3 of 3Fraser, Alexander, Mrs.
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Daughters of Belgravia; vol. 3 of 3
Fraser, Alexander, Mrs.
Fiction
As she sits here before him, her hands clasped loosely together, a sort
of abandon in her lovely figure, the light throws up richer gold on her
hair, the soft folds of her satin gown fall round her moulded form like
the robes of an empress, and he almost groans as he realises how
impossible it would be to choose a life for one gifted with such rare
physical beauty, that would not be hedged round with ten thousand
dangers.
He shudders as he feels that this gift of beauty _must_ be a curse,
dragging her downwards.
“_I_ your fate? God knows _what_ your fate will be! You must have been
mad to choose such an awful life.”
“Because you think me pretty, you say that! What is the use of being
good-looking if it can bring me none of the nice things I desire? I
might as well be ugly and old and senseless, if I had to be shut up
within the narrow limits of most women’s lives. How could I gain power,
the appreciation which is my due, if the public do not see me and judge
for themselves? I wanted to be rich and I am so; I wanted to ride in
carriages like I have seen women do, whose beauty has paled beside mine.
What women care to live always in insignificance, obscurity, and, worst
of all, in _poverty_?” she asks simply.
Lord Delaval is too much _homme du monde_ to shrink from her when she
says all this--when she breathes a creed utterly antagonistic to the
training of _good_ women. He does not revolt even from the evidently
hard realism of her nature; the manner in which she seems to appraise
and value her own attractions, setting no store on the beauty which
womanly women hold as a gift beyond price, but only as a means of
winning money, makes him regard her with a curious feeling that has no
repulsion in it.
“Marguerite,” he says--he has already come to her Christian name, but
among her class this is so common that she probably never even notices
it. “Tell me, have you no heart, no feeling, that you talk so
strangely?”
“_Do_ I talk strangely?” she asks with a bewildering smile. “Do I differ
so much in my words and ways from your high-born English misses--the
women who live in what you call your May Fair, your Belgravia, who sell
themselves for gold? I have heard that it is the trade, the profession,
of those ladies very often to lay themselves out to win some man, no
matter how old he is, how ugly he is, so that he is rich! And then they
give themselves in exchange for money or title. But it is a fair
bargain, is it not so? So much flesh and blood for so much gold, and
your aristocratic world smiles on them and honours them, while it and
you condemn such poor girls as I, who only use my youth and good looks
in the pursuit of my profession. There is only one difference you see,
the matrimonial market is not open to such as me with my soiled name, so
I am obliged to try and make a name and reputation for myself.”
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