I wanted to laugh at myself for the fool I had been. I arose. It was
useless to sit longer with folded arms and determined eyes fixed on her
face, to break her will by hypnotic power. I knew that I was defeated,
and however better defeat might be than victory, judged in wisdom, it
was not pleasant to a man of spirit. I stood before her pulling on a
glove and she looked up at me with a suggestion of defiance. I was not
heart-broken. I felt that I should be, but I knew that I was suffering
only in my pride. I wanted to sit down again in friendly fashion and
tell her how hard I had tried to do my duty, that I too loved another,
and that now she had made the way easy for me, but I refrained from
such petty revenge.
I held out my hand. "I wish you all happiness, Gladys," I said. "You
must not trouble about me. No doubt you have chosen wisely."
"You are a dear, good boy, David," she said, rising and addressing me
in a motherly tone as though she had suddenly attained twice my years.
"You will find another woman more worthy of you--I know you will. And
when you come to Harlansburg you must bring her to see us. We shall be
such good friends."
To Harlansburg? The whole story was clear in my mind. I remembered
the Egyptian picture, the pyramids, the camels, and young Marshall's
warning. And I had been so blind that a moment since I was saying that
if another man had wrought this changed mind in Gladys Todd he must be
a superlatively wonderful man. After all, the superlatively wonderful
man was ex-Judge Bundy. Now the blow to my pride was fairly crushing.
It did seem that I had a few natural qualities which should have
weighed in the scales against such a rival. But if I had youth, he had
wealth; if I had promise, he had the same promise of youth fulfilled in
giant nail works; if I offered a vine-clad cottage on a bit of green,
he could give the big gray-stone house with many turrets, the lawn with
the marble lions and perfect terraces sloping down to the ornate fence.
The very absurdity of the situation saved me from regret.
Gladys Todd was looking at me with narrowed eyes. I think she expected
some outburst of emotion. Perhaps she felt sorry for the pain that she
had caused me. But as I looked at her and remembered the past, as I
thought of the judge, the house, and the marble lions, even my wounded
pride was forgotten. I checked the smile which was threading my lips.
I took my conge as a man should, gravely, with head bowed under the
crushing blow, with eyes downcast as though they would never again look
up into the joyous sunlight. I turned and left the room.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account