PURDIE. I would rather not say it at all than that way. (He is touchingly anxious that she should know him as he really is.) I don't know, Mabel, whether you have noticed that I am not like other men. (He goes deeply into the very structure of his being.) All my life I have been a soul that has had to walk alone. Even as a child I had no hope that it would be otherwise. I distinctly remember when I was six thinking how unlike other children I was. Before I was twelve I suffered from terrible self-depreciation; I do so still. I suppose there never was a man who had a more lowly opinion of himself. MABEL. Jack, you who are so universally admired. PURDIE. That doesn't help; I remain my own judge. I am afraid I am a dark spirit, Mabel. Yes, yes, my dear, let me leave nothing untold however it may damage me in your eyes. Your eyes! I cannot remember a time when I did not think of Love as a great consuming passion; I visualised it, Mabel, as perhaps few have done, but always as the abounding joy that could come to others but never to me. I expected too much of women: I suppose I was touched to finer issues than most. That has been my tragedy. MABEL. Then you met Joanna. PURDIE. Then I met Joanna. Yes! Foolishly, as I now see, I thought she would understand that I was far too deep a nature really to mean the little things I sometimes said to her. I suppose a man was never placed in such a position before. What was I to do? Remember, I was always certain that the ideal love could never come to me. Whatever the circumstances, I was convinced that my soul must walk alone. MABEL. Joanna, how could you. PURDIE (firmly). Not a word against her, Mabel; if blame there is the blame is mine. MABEL. And so you married her. PURDIE. And so I married her. MABEL. Out of pity. PURDIE. I felt it was a man's part. I was such a child in worldly matters that it was pleasant to me to have the right to pay a woman's bills; I enjoyed seeing her garments lying about on my chairs. In time that exultation wore off. But I was not unhappy, I didn't expect much, I was always so sure that no woman could ever plumb the well of my emotions. MABEL. Then you met me. PURDIE. Then I met you. MABEL. Too late--never--forever--forever--never. They are the saddest words in the English tongue. PURDIE. At the time I thought a still sadder word was Joanna. MABEL. What was it you saw in me that made you love me? PURDIE (plumbing the well of his emotions). I think it was the feeling that you are so like myself. MABEL (with great eyes). Have you noticed that, Jack? Sometimes it has almost terrified me. PURDIE. We think the same thoughts; we are not two, Mabel; we are one. Your hair-- MABEL. Joanna knows you admire it, and for a week she did hers in the same way. PURDIE. I never noticed.