The others just thought him a rum
bloke, and left him pretty much alone.
Probably what had distressed him most was the row between Elizabeth
and Fanny. With the whole world collapsing about him, it seemed quite
logical that the Triumphal Scheme for the Perfect Sex Relation should
collapse too. He did not feel the peevish disgust of the reforming
idealist who makes a failure. But in the general disintegration of all
things he had clung very closely to those two women, too closely of
course. They had acquired a sort of mythical and symbolical meaning
for him. They resented and deplored the War, but they were admirably
detached from it. For George they represented what hope of humanity
he had left, in them alone civilization seemed to survive. All the
rest was blood and brutality and persecution and humbug. In them alone
the thread of life remained continuous. They were two small havens of
civilized existence and alone gave him any hope for the future. They
had escaped the vindictive destructiveness which so horribly possessed
the spirits of all right-thinking people. Of course, they were
persecuted, that was inevitable. But they remained detached, and alive.
Unfortunately, they did not quite realize the strain under which he was
living, and did not perceive the widening gulf which was separating the
men of that generation from the women. How could they? The friends of a
person with cancer haven’t got cancer. They sympathize, but they aren’t
in the horrid category of the doomed. Even before the Elizabeth-Fanny
row he was subtly drifting apart from them against his will, against
his desperate efforts to remain at one with them. Over the men of that
generation hung a doom which was admirably if somewhat ruthlessly
expressed by a British Staff Officer in an address to subalterns in
France: “You are the War generation. You were born to fight this War,
and it’s got to be won—we’re determined you shall win it. So far as
you are concerned as individuals, it doesn’t matter a tinker’s damn
whether you are killed or not. Most probably you will be killed, most
of you. So make up your minds to it.”
That extension of the Kiplingesque or Kicked-backside-of-the-Empire
principle was something for which George was not prepared. He resented
it, resented it bitterly, but the doom was on him as on all the young
men. When “we” had determined that they should be killed, it was
impious to demur.
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