He had no doubts whatever about the War. What England did must be
right, and England had declared war on Germany. Therefore, Germany
must be wrong. Evans propounded this somewhat primitive argument to
Winterbourne with a condescending air, as if he were imparting some
irrefutable piece of knowledge to a regrettably ignorant inferior.
Of course, after ten minutes’ conversation with Evans, Winterbourne
saw the kind of man he was and realized that he must continue to
dissimulate with him as with every one else in the Army. However, he
could not resist the temptation to bewilder him a little sometimes.
It was quite impossible to do anything more. Evans possessed that
British rhinoceros equipment of mingled ignorance, self-confidence
and complacency which is triple-armed against all the shafts of the
mind. And yet Winterbourne could not help liking the man. He was
exasperatingly stupid, but he was honest, he was kindly, he was
conscientious, he could obey orders and command obedience in others, he
took pains to look after his men. He could be implicitly relied upon to
lead a hopeless attack and to maintain a desperate defence to the very
end. There were thousands and tens of thousands like him.
* * * * *
Winterbourne noticed that when they were in the line at night, Evans
made a point of walking over the top, instead of in the trenches, even
when it was plainly far more inconvenient and slower to do so, on
account of the wire and shell-holes and other obstacles. At the time,
he paid little attention to this, thinking either that it was expected
of an officer, or that Evans did it to encourage the men. Evans rather
deliberately exposed himself, and always maintained complete calm. If
the two men were exposed to shells or machine-gun fire, Evans walked
more slowly, spoke more deliberately, seemed intentionally to linger.
It was not until months afterward that Winterbourne suddenly realized
from his own experience that Evans had been reassuring, not his men,
but himself. He had been deliberately trying to prove to himself that
he did not mind being under fire.
Any man who spent six months in the line (which almost inevitably
meant taking part in a big battle) and then claimed that he had never
felt fear, never received any shock to his nerves, never had his heart
thumping and his throat dry with apprehension, was either super-human,
subnormal or a liar. The newest troops were nearly always the least
affected. They were not braver, they were merely fresher. There were
very few—were there any?—who could resist week after week, month
after month of the physical and mental strain. It is absurd to talk
about men being brave or cowards. There were greater or less degrees
of sensibility, more or less self-control. The longer the strain on
the finer sensibility the greater the self-control needed. But this
continual neurosis steadily became worse and required a greater effort
of repression.
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