Deborah: A tale of the times of Judas MaccabaeusLudlow, James M. (James Meeker)
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Deborah: A tale of the times of Judas Maccabaeus
Ludlow, James M. (James Meeker)
Jewish fiction; Jews -- History -- 586 B.C.-70 A.D. -- Fiction; Maccabees -- Fiction
A moment elapsed before she replied, but that moment was like one of
those in which we dream, and live hours and days. She realized that
there had now been forced upon her a quick decision of the question
which the past hour of agonizing debate with herself had not begun
to solve. She had time in that waiting moment to pray for light. She
gathered up many scenes of those terrible days in the city, of her
flight from Dion's help, of her vow, of her life as a spy. To these she
added the imagined scenes of the coming day, the slaughter of Greeks,
perhaps the annihilation of the Jewish band, and extinction of Israel's
hopes. She saw all these things, and central of them all she saw the
form now before her falling beneath some arrow shot from the covert of
the rocks overhanging the valley he was about to enter. And then she
saw herself as the accomplisher of it all.
"And this, this," she said to herself, "is to be a woman's return for a
man's love!"
Deborah had often prayed that God would destroy her sense of
personality, that she might be but an unfeeling agent of His will,
as are the lightning and tempest; but He had not done so. Her human
nature asserted itself over her faith; her individuality refused to
lose itself in her nationality, or shall we say that her womanhood
was stronger than both? This man and herself were for the instant as
essential factors in her problem as were the Greek and Jewish armies.
But she saw no clearer the solution of that problem; only that it
must be solved, right or wrong, and at once. So she replied to her
questioner:
"Yes, I came from Jerusalem."
The officer peered closely into her face.
"You are not Greek nor Syrian."
"God be praised, I am not. I am a daughter of Jerusalem, an outcast
from my father's house, as you would make all the women and children of
Israel to be."
"Deborah! Daughter of Elkiah! Do I dream? Of all the damnable things
that war has brought this is the most fiendish. You, Deborah, in a
soldier's camp! Good gods! Tell me you are not the daughter of Elkiah,
but some black soul from Erebus which has found her dead body and
entered it."
"Dion, I did not die, but it is true that another spirit has entered
mine."
"Better wert thou dead than live such a life as this," cried he. "Why
did you fly without my help? I had arranged for your safety. I would
have given my life for yours--but--but now----"
He grasped her hands, then threw them from him as something that
defiled him. "There is no god of Jew or Greek, or this could not have
been. Tell me, Deborah, that what I see is not true. That you--that you
are not here."
He covered his face with his hands as if to banish the vision of the
reality.
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