Deep Waters; Or, A Strange StoryCrozier, R. H. (Robert Hoskins)
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Deep Waters; Or, A Strange Story
Crozier, R. H. (Robert Hoskins)
American fiction -- 19th century; Predestination -- Fiction; United States -- History -- Civil War, 1861-1865 -- Fiction
Ernest was present, and heard the reading of this petition. Who could
it be but himself? At first, a flash of displeasure, to call it by the
mildest name, passed over his handsome face. Who was the person that
had the impudence to direct attention to him? But all harsh thoughts
soon passed away, when he reflected that the petitioner, whoever it
might be, desired only his good. The process of rigid introspection
succeeded his first unpleasant thoughts, and he at once gave attention
to the contest between conscience and passion that had mysteriously
begun. He seemed to be only a spectator of the conflict of antagonistic
forces in his soul. There are times, says one of the most profound and
philosophical women of the nineteenth century, when our passions speak
for us, and we stand by and look on in astonishment. There is something
similar to this in the process of spiritual regeneration. Questions
and answers suddenly arise in the mind, as of concealed beings in
whispered consultation, and we appear to ourselves to be listening to
the mysterious dialogue. So it was with Ernest Edgefield, as he sat
in the church engaged in self-examination. It appeared to him that
he had suddenly awakened out of an alarming dream. He had been in a
moral sleep all his life, and had never reflected seriously upon the
unknown eternity which was distant but a single step. A “still small
voice” seemed to come on the very breeze, and whispered: “What folly
this young man has displayed in thinking of nothing but the things
of time and sense.” Ernest almost started. “What am I living for?”
he asked himself. “In a few weeks I shall be married, and will give
renewed attention to business. But time will flow on: and if I live,
I will soon be an old man, and I must die, and then--and then--what?”
Ernest was neither infidel nor skeptic: indeed, he only needed that his
fears should be aroused as a precedent condition to becoming an active
Christian. After prayer had been offered up for the “young lawyer,”
and while thoughts, conclusions and convictions were all mingling
together in the mind of Ernest, he looked at Clara, who was sitting
where he could see her face. Their eyes met. She was gazing at him with
an expression which he could easily interpret, and if she had spoken
in an audible voice, he could not more clearly have understood her to
say: “Isn’t it ridiculous?” The young man almost shuddered. Why did a
great yawning abyss seem to open suddenly between them? The depression
which had for some days weighed down his spirits, all at once appeared
like a heavy rock upon his breast, causing something like a sickening
sensation to creep through his troubled heart. However, in his present
state of newly aroused emotions, to which he had been such an utter
stranger all his life, he felt that a subject of more vital importance
than even his marriage deserved his immediate attention. Accordingly
he turned his gaze upon the preacher, who announced his text: “Thou
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