The rainy weather had indeed been very propitious to the study of
German. For a fortnight Margaret had spent some hours of each day with
Miss Young; and over their books they had learned so much of one
another's heart and mind, that a strong regard had sprung up between
them. This new friendship was a great event to Miss Young;--how great,
she herself could scarcely have believed beforehand. Her pupils found
that Miss Young was now very merry sometimes. Mr Grey observed to his
wife that the warmer weather seemed to agree with the poor young woman,
as she had some little colour in her cheeks at last; and Margaret
herself observed a change in the tone of the philosophy she had admired
from the beginning. There was somewhat less of reasoning in it, and
more of impulse; it was as sound as ever, but more genial. While never
forgetting the constancy of change in human affairs, she was heartily
willing to enjoy the good that befell her, while it lasted. It was well
that she could do so; for the good of this new friendship was presently
alloyed.
She was not aware, and it was well that she was not, that Hester was
jealous of her, almost from the hour of Margaret's learning what a vast
number of irregular verbs there is in the German. Each sister
remembered the conversation by the open window, on the night of their
arrival at Deerbrook. Remembering it, Margaret made Hester a partaker
in all her feelings about Maria Young; her admiration, her pity, her
esteem. Reserving to herself any confidence which Maria placed in her
(in which, however, no mention of Mr Enderby ever occurred), she kept
not a thought or feeling of her own from her sister. The consequence
was, that Hester found that Maria filled a large space in Margaret's
mind, and that a new interest had risen up in which she had little
share. She, too, remembered the conversation, but had not strength to
act up to the spirit of it. She had then owned her weakness, and called
it wickedness, and fancied that she could never mistrust her sister
again. She was now so ashamed of her own consciousness of being once
more jealous, that she strove to hide the fact from herself; and was not
therefore likely to tell it to Margaret. She struggled hourly with
herself, rebuking her own temper, and making appeals to her own
generosity. She sat drawing in the little blue parlour, morning after
morning, during Sophia's reading or practising, telling herself that
Margaret and Miss Young had no secrets, no desire to be always
_tete-a-tete_; that they had properly invited her to learn German; and
that she had only to go at any moment, and offer to join them, to be
joyfully received. She argued with herself,--how mean it would be to do
so; to agree to study at last, in order to be a sort of spy upon them,
to watch over her own interests; as if Margaret--the most sincere and
faithful of living beings--were not to be trusted with them. She had
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