Bildungsromans; Germany -- Social conditions -- 1918-1933 -- Fiction; Young men -- Germany -- Fiction
Unexpectedly we found ourselves in the middle of a singular and ominous
conversation. Having recalled Demian’s discourse with the Japanese,
we spoke of student life in general and from that we had branched
off to something else, which seemed to be rather out of the way of
the former trend of our talk. Nevertheless, from Demian’s manner of
introducing the subject, there seemed to be no lack of coherence in our
conversation.
He spoke of the spirit of Europe, and of modern tendencies. Everywhere,
he said, reigned a desire to come together, to form herds, but nowhere
was freedom or love. All this life in common, from the student clubs
and choral societies to the state, was an unnatural, forced phenomenon.
The community owed its origin to a sense of fear, of embarrassment, to
a desire for flight; inwardly it was rotten and old, and approaching a
general break-up.
“Community,” Demian said, “is a beautiful thing. But what we see
blossoming everywhere is by no means that. It will arise anew from the
mutual understanding of individuals, and after a time the world will be
remodeled. What is now called community is merely a formation of herds.
Mankind seeks refuge together because men have fear of one another--the
masters combine for their own ends, the workmen for theirs, and the
intellectuals for theirs! And why are they afraid? One is only afraid
when one is not at one with oneself. They are afraid because they
have never had the courage to be themselves. A community of men who
are afraid of the unknown in themselves! They all feel that the laws
of their life no longer hold good, that they are living according to
outworn commandments. Neither their religion nor their morals conform
to our needs. For a hundred years and more Europe has simply studied
and built factories. They know exactly how many grams of powder it
takes to kill a man, but they do not know how to pray to God. They
have no idea how to amuse themselves, even for an hour. Look at these
students drinking in their tavern! Or take any place of amusement
where rich people go! Hopeless! My dear Sinclair, no cheerfulness,
no serenity can come of all that. These creatures, who move about so
uneasily in crowds, are full of fear and full of wickedness, no one
trusts the other. They adhere to ideals which have ceased to exist,
and they stone everyone who proposes a new one. I feel that there
are troubles ahead of us. They will come, believe me, they will come
soon! Of course the world won’t be bettered! Whether the workmen kill
the manufacturers, or whether the Russians and Germans shoot at one
another, it will only be a change of proprietors. But it will not be
in vain. It will free the world from the chains of present-day ideals,
there will be a clearing away of Stone-Age gods. The world, as it is
now, wants to die, it wants to perish, and it will.”
“And what will happen to us then?” I asked.
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