Bildungsromans; Germany -- Social conditions -- 1918-1933 -- Fiction; Young men -- Germany -- Fiction
I stood under the tall trees, stunned and stupefied. I knew not whether
I was more awake or more dreaming than ever. Softly the rain dripped
from the branches. I went slowly through the garden, which stretched
far along the river bank. At last I found Demian. He stood in an open
summer house. Naked to the waist, he was doing boxing exercises with a
little sack of sand hung from a beam.
Astonished, I remained standing there. Demian looked magnificent; his
broad chest, the firm manly head, the uplifted arms were strong and
sturdy. The movements came from the hips, the shoulders, the joints of
the arm, as easily as if they bubbled out of a spring of strength.
“Demian!” I called. “What are you doing there?”
He laughed gaily.
“I am exercising. I have promised to box with the little Jap; the
fellow is as agile as a cat, and naturally just as sly. But he won’t be
able to manage me. I owe him just one little beating.”
He drew on shirt and coat.
“You have already seen mother?” he asked.
“Yes, Demian, what a marvellous mother you have! Mother Eve! The name
suits her perfectly; she is like the mother of all being.”
He gazed for an instant musingly in my face.
“You know her name already? You ought to be proud, young friend.
You are the only one to whom she has said it in the first hour’s
acquaintance.”
From this day on I went in and out of the house like a son and a
brother, but also like a lover. When I closed the gate behind me, even
when I saw the tall trees of the garden emerge in the distance, I was
happy. Outside was “reality,” outside were streets and houses, human
beings and institutions, libraries and lecture rooms--here inside were
love and the life of the soul, here was the kingdom of fairy stories
and dreams. And yet we lived by no means shut off from the world. In
thought and word we often lived in its midst, only on another plane. We
were not separated from the majority of creatures by boundaries, but
rather by a different sort of vision. Our task was to be, as it were,
an island in the world, perhaps an example, in any case to proclaim
that it was possible to live a different sort of life. I, who had been
isolated for so long, learned to what extent community of feeling is
possible between people who have experienced complete loneliness. I no
longer desired to be back at the tables of the happy, at the feasts
of the merry. I no longer felt envious or homesick when I saw others
living in community. And slowly I was initiated into the mystery of
those who bore “the sign.”
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