Interplanetary voyages -- Fiction; Science fiction; Space and time -- Fiction
"Yes, but against what?" The woman's voice had a faint overtone of
hysteria. "That's what I keep asking myself at practice whenever I look
through the slit and depress the trigger of the new gun--not knowing
what it is that the gun will shoot or how it really works. I keep
asking myself, over and over, what's going to be out there instead of
the neat little target--what it is I'm going to kill. Until sometimes I
think I'm going crazy. Oh Burk, there's something I've got to tell you,
though I promised not to. I heard it yesterday--I mustn't tell who told
me. It's that there's really a way of escape to that happier world we
all dream of, if only you know how to concentrate your mind--"
"_Sh!_"
This time it was Thorn's eavesdropping that precipitated the warning.
He managed to listen in on many similar, smaller fragments of talk.
* * * * *
Gradually a change came over his mood--a complete change. His curiosity
was not satisfied, but it was quenched. Oh, he had guessed several
things from what he had heard, all right--in particular, that the
"new kind of inspection" was designed to uncover displaced minds like
his own, and that the "way of escape" was the one the other Thorn
had taken--but this knowledge no longer lured him on. The fever of
demoniac excitement had waned as swiftly as drunkenness, and left
as sickening a depression in its wake. Normal human emotions were
re-asserting themselves--a shrinking from the ominous strangeness of
this distorted world, and an aching, unreasoning, mountingly frantic
desire to get back to familiar faces and scenes.
Bitter regret began to torture him for having deserted Clawly and his
home-world because of the pressure of a purely personal moral problem.
No knowing what confusions and dangers the other Thorn might weave for
an unsuspecting Clawly. And upon Clawly alone, now that he was gone,
the safety of the home-world depended. True, if most of the displacing
minds from this world were only those of oppressed individuals seeking
escape, they would constitute no immediate unified danger. But if the
shadowy, autocratic "they" were contemplating an invasion--that would
be a very different matter.
The avenue, now skirting some sort of barren hillside, had become
hateful to him. It was like a treadmill, and the glaring lights
prevented any extended glimpse of the surrounding landscape. He would
probably have left it soon in any case, even without sight of the
jam-up ahead, where some sort of inspection of all walkers seemed to be
going on. As it was, that sight decided him. He edged over to the side,
waited for what he thought was a good opportunity, and ducked through
the hedge.
Some minutes later, panting from concentrated exertion, his clothes
muddied and grass-stained, he came out on the hilltop. The darkness and
the familiar stars were a relief. He looked around.
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