"God," said John suddenly, in a low, distinct voice in the darkness. "Do
something. If you don't stop it nobody else will. You know you can if
you like. You divided the Red Sea. Remember all your plagues. Oh, God!
God! make something happen. There's half an hour still. Think of him.
Both hands. And all the clever books he was going to write, and all the
things he was going to do. Oh, God! God! and _such_ a cricketer!"
There was a short silence. John felt absolutely certain God would
answer. He waited a long time, but no one spoke. The fog deepened
outside. The quarter struck faintly from the church in the next street.
"I give up one hand," said John, stretching out both of his. "I only ask
for one now. Let him keep one--the other one. He is so clever, he could
soon learn to write with his left, and perhaps hooks don't hurt after
the first. Oh, God! I dare say he could manage with one, but not both,
not both."
John repeated the last words over and over again in an agony of
supplication. He would _make_ God hear.
It was growing very dark. The link-boys were crying in the streets: a
carriage stopped at the door.
"Oh, God! They're coming. Not both; not both!" gasped John, and the
sweat broke from his forehead.
Two more carriages--lowered voices in the passage, and quiet footfalls
going upstairs. John prayed without ceasing. The house had become very
silent. At last the silence awed him, and an overmastering longing to
know seized upon him. He stole out of the drawing-room, and sped swiftly
upstairs. On the landing opposite Mr. Goodwin's room the butler was
standing listening. Everything was quite still. John could hear the gas
burning. There was a can of hot water just outside the door. The steam
curled upwards out of the spout. As he reached the landing the door was
softly opened, and the nurse raised the heavy can and lifted it into the
room.
Through the open door came a hoarse inarticulate sound, which seemed to
pierce into John's brain.
"Courage," said a gentle voice, and the door was closed again. The
butler breathed heavily, and there was a whimper from the upper landing.
Trembling from head to foot John fled down the stairs again unperceived
into the drawing-room, and crouched down on the floor near the open
door, turning his face to the wall. Every now and then a strong shudder
passed over him, and he beat his little black head dumbly against the
wall. But he did not move until at last the doctors came down. He let
the first two pass, he could not speak to them; and it was a long time
before the father of Tom and Edward appeared. John came suddenly out
upon him at the turn of the stairs.
"Is it both?" he said, clutching his coat.
"Both what, my boy?" said the doctor, puzzled by the sudden onslaught,
and looking down at the blackened convulsed face and shaggy hair.
"Both _hands_."
The doctor hesitated.
"Yes," he said gravely. "I am grieved to say it is." John flung up his
arms.
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